That's About It.

I Want This. #2

2011-04-29T22:14:00.003+08:00

http://www.artistdirect.com/nad/store/artist/merchandise/0,,24546,00.html

http://kaiserchiefs.firebrandlive.com/item/mens-guitar-t-shirt-sport-grey/2000/

It would be bloody awesome if someone give these on my birthday. FREAKING SWEET.

I Want This. #1

2011-04-24T17:58:00.007+08:00

Number one thing to do before I die :

Attend Kaiser Chiefs' concert and dance like freakin' mad.

hellyeah.

All we need is love and salvation.

2011-04-23T17:12:00.003+08:00

What has the world become?

Stepping on a different ground. #1

2011-04-22T23:28:00.011+08:00

I was browsing around in this huge book store and they have a music section. I wanted a jazz album, to be honest. Bout Amy Winehouse's Back To Black album, it's just brilliant and i'm a fan of hers. But I wanted to branched out as well, because listening to one artist in a certain field only is just plain weird.

This album has the magic ability to give me a mental message after a long day in college. I woke up at 6 in the morning on Friday, with the sun shining slightly into my room and my alarm was 'Starstrukk' by 3OH!3 with snooze for just 2 minutes. Came home at about 5-ish in the evening and just feel mentally exhausted. I have to do some sketching for homework and I'm pretty sure I won't understand and master economics by praying for information entering my head.

After dinner I went to this park near my place for a walk. It's Friday so it's filled with people. When I said people, some might think about the pushing and the squishing and the bumping on someone's back with our face when the person in front of us just decided to stop in the middle of the road.

On the contrary! Although there's people, it doesn't have the intensity and rush in these sea of people. Everybody walks and talks and just chilling. There's even people dancing and that sort of stuff. I gotta say, I love it.

A few days ago, I found this indie shop nearby my place. I loved it so much that I just feel like staying there for as long as I could. There's so many individual objects that capture my eye. Everything oozes memory, people, scent, feelings. They sell rare notebooks (which clearly is 100% my kinda thing), CDs (I found The Kooks among the CDs that they're selling, SCORE), cups, calenders, baby stuff, simple outfits, pens, different genre of books - just about anything I like.

I used to dream that I will open one of these shops. Be in my wonder land all day and selling each and every special thing I have in my store and make my customers happy. Picturing my product placing somewhere in their house. Gleeful to know that I've help in making their home, HOME.

Do check out this website if you are a fan of visual art and culture.

http://artnouveaumagazine.com/

Found this website when I was doing research for an assignment in Contemporary History of Fashion. ;)

Anyway, here are just some of the photos that I've taken. Enjoy !

One out of thousands of streets in GZ.

Heart-shaped cigarettes!

Grandaunt's telephone book in Hongkong.

My short trip to HongKong.

Hongkong = sea of people.

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My second home.

Signing off for now.

A beanie. Is my last resort.

2011-02-07T01:18:00.010+08:00

Basically this is what i've been up to. In a nutshell. :D

NAH i'm kidding. Will get to the details real soon.

Yes, i've been studying for half a month in China before flying back to Malaysia. And my GOD it is quite chilly there. Rented an apartment (there's where i go "I HAVE A HOME!") . Will be flying back real soon.

I'm currently studying Fashion Marketing and Management in Raffles Design Institute!

I will be there for 3 years and will only be back once a year. But i think there's a high chance that i will be staying there longer!

Many of my friends asked : "WHY CHINA?!"

Well, truth be told, i don't know.

Yes, i can study here in Malaysia. But i didn't. I guess i want this adventure, a difference. And many other stuff and reasons! ..okay, i just want an adventure. I've been in KL for so many years, and switching it up is actually very interesting.

I really have to thank my parents for all this. They financially and morally supported me all the way, i'm really grateful. And i promise to deliver my best in my course.

And i never understood Malaysians who wear boots around town, it's pure madness. I've been walking around China with boots, and i DO sweat. Imagine the people here wearing this thing, they will flood the God damn footwear and shower the plants with perspiration later at night.

And they banned Facebook, Blogger and Youtube. So.

See you guys next CNY! :D

umphs and mwahs, Mongie.

❤

Light.Dance.Go.

2010-12-22T04:58:00.009+08:00

If i like wearing jeans, t-shirt and converse. If i love about the fact that i play drums. If i'm not feminine. If i'm not attractive. If i have the smallest eyes in the planet. If i was found easier to hang out with guys. If i love blazers. If my laugh is not as elegant as in the Victorian times. If i'm meaty. If i love indie music. If i love to jump around and dance when there's awesome band playing. If i love cars. If i'm fond of tattoos and piercings.

It doesn't mean i'm one of the boys.

I just want people to see me as a girl. I'm just somehow a wee bit different, that's all.

The questions. 'Why why why' is always in my head. Once in awhile i cursed at my size. I hated about the fact that the biggest factor about me that turns people (mostly guys) off is my size and weight. This issue is always on and off, for awhile i'm all "screw everybody, God made me like this". But there are moments where i go 'i would do anything to be skinny'.

I got sick and tired of not being comfortable in my own skin, especially thinking there's something wrong with me because I've always been the unlucky bug in certain aspects of life.

I used to be shy when it comes to this, not knowing and not wanting how to dance like how my good mates Kris and Nisha dance. I used to envy how they can move around without any care to the world. Just before my prom night's time to dance, i inhaled every courage i have. I looked at Rina and Nisha when Black Eyed Peas started playing loudly, they gave me the eye and we walked to the dance floor together. I finally get to dance around with them like there's no tomorrow. I used to be strict to myself, telling myself NOT to raise my arms while dancing because, honestly, it's flabby. Someone could get hurt in the process, especially in the face.

But hey, i did it anyway. It may be a disgusting sight, but the feeling of freedom is so overwhelming, it felt so good that i actually.. don't mind.

Anyway. My point being. All these while, I've been convinced that being another person, with a certain type of personality will make people like me more. But in the end, what i don't see is that it wears me out so deeply that i'm starting to get emotionally stressed out.

The best thing is to be myself. If that doesn't attract anybody, then it's alright i guess. As long as i'm happy and content, i know everything is going to be alright in the end.

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Need a pick-me-up? Here you go.

Does It Offend You, Yeah? - Being Bad Feels Pretty Good.

I did it.

I'm finally okay at NOT being okay.

Drums, Lazy Sunday and Daisy.

2010-12-17T04:25:00.006+08:00

IT'S THE STIG!

One of the good things about this 3-month-freedom is that i can continue my drum lessons. But the receptionist wanted me to go to the studio personally and pick out the date, time and everything. I uh, haven't got a clue when will i visit the office yet. So we'll see, although i'm genuinely excited.

My passion over drums wasn't a life-long kinda thing. It was more of a 'yeah this looks great, let's do this' and it blossoms. Oddly, my parents had never suggested any instrument-playing when i was a child AND in my early teen years. Erik was surprised when he found out i don't have any early involvement towards music. Actually, it was more of an episode of my dad's inspirational teachings. He always encourage us to pick up a language or learn a skill so we can have a better grip in future. Well, anyone with brains will agree to that.

It got into my head without much stress, and so one day i thought drums is actually a great idea. I never liked guitar or piano or cello as much as i like drums, so i just asked for my parents' green-light and go full throttle.

Oh, my first day. Nervous as heck. I went in the studio and met Erik. Learned the basics and stuff. The highlight of the month is when he told me i was definitely above than average. Let's be honest, everybody wants to be good in something. Of course i'm over the moon.

I thought that hey, i can tackle drums, i might have a good shot in playing guitar as well. But unfortunately i was all feet when i strum the guitar. After all the hours trying to play it, i finally gave up. Knowing that i had absolute no talent whatsoever with the guitar. Thus, it sits there, sooner or later blending together with my wall of things.

Switching hands to change the chords becomes a chore, and it seems impossible. My hair stands and my spine tingling as i strum on my guitar to produce some sort of odd tune that i know i'll never enjoy. Cringing at the fact that my parents whom are downstairs drinking Nescafe and reading the newspapers are gonna think that their daughter don't have the magic fingers.

Eventually, i stopped. And decided i should just stick to drums.

I know i won't be playing the guitar anytime soon, at least i do enjoy holding drumsticks in my hands and kick in some beats. When I slowly learned how to play the drum intro for Kaiser Chief's Learnt My Lesson Well, I went HOLY SHIT I DID THAT! The day after that whenever i had the chance i would hit my fingers against any table to practice that short drum intro in the beginning. Not owning a drum set at home is not a minus, definitely. But owning one would sure drive the neighbours insane but it would keep me happy. But due to the economy now, i don't think it's a good time to look at my dad and said : "Dad, i want to be a professional drummer. To do that, i need a drum set. *clap hands once* NOW."

It's selfish and idiotic.

Being a good daughter. OYEAH.

Anyway. God. Has anybody want a cat real bad?

I know i want a cat quite badly. A few days earlier there's a cat rolling around our compound, and it definitely caught my attention. I went up to her, bend down, look at her and asked what is she doing. She looked at me with that cute eyes that just makes me want to drop everything and hide her in my room to take her as a pet.

As our family do basic things like washing the car or doing the laundry, she's still there. I wanted to keep her, but i don't think dad would be happy when there's cat fur all over the house and his sofa destroyed. Mom would be fine with it, as my grandma has 3 cats on her own. I used to be afraid of them, they look quite intimidating. But once i got in contact with them, things just changed. But i'm still very afraid of dogs. ..Especially Lessie.

Next day the cat was gone. So i had to diverge my plan to catnap others.

No wait, drums, guitar, music, right.

Anyhow, i don't get why there are some people who want play instruments just to get famous, be rock stars and all that. Besides, unless you're really good-looking, the drummers usually won't be recognized by people. It's true! I learn drums for the sake of passion, interest, and yes it can save me when my future in studies tanked.

Well i'm not saying my future will tank.. We just won't know what can happen, right?

I found this song on Youtube for quite some time, and it's has become one of my favourite songs. And yes, they recorded this in the year 1968. It absolutely cheers me up by millions of miles, hope it does the same to you!

Small Faces' song Lazy Sunday.

Then Kaiser Chiefs sang their song live in a french radio station i think. I loved both versions, it was great!

Kaiser Chief's version

Daisy will always be my favourite flower, even though the world consider it as the flower of death! (:

facial, cars and duck sauce.

2010-12-16T20:41:00.010+08:00

For the first time in my seventeen year old life, i've agreed to do something - to go on a facial appointment.

My mom whom was reading the newspaper, sent an open invitation to me. I was laying on the couch watching TV, agreed because of two major things :

i) My prom is coming up! I need to get rid of my blackheads and shape my bushy and growing like a forrest, triangular eyebrows.

ii) there's nothing left to do at home.. so LET'S GO!

When the lady started picking out my blackheads, of course it hurts. I feel like my face was made out of ice cream, and she's using that scoop to scoop up every dignity and pain receptors i had. But i can tolerate pain quite okay, i guess? But believe it or not, i found a way to ease the pain from all the squeezing. It won't suck off all the pain, but yes, some of it. Oddly, it's cars.

My brother's friend uploaded Top Gear series 15 - in HD into our computer. I was super excited about it, and i believed that i watched it so many times i wasn't even bored of it. So all the images of cars just got into my head during facial. There's a couple of cars which are weirdly painkillers to me, apparently, there are :

Citroen DS3 racing

It's not the most good looking car in the world, yes. But there's just something about it, some mojo going on that you just look at it and go 'hey, i think i wanna take a ride in that'. I would be very happy if i can drive that, even if it means i would drive on the road with no license.

Truth be told, there can't be too much orange.

Ferrari 458 Italia

God, just look at that! I've never seen a Ferrari and go all excited about it. Usually when i was reading articles or viewing images about any Ferrari, I don't pay much attention to any of them because technically, they don't appeal THAT much. But this one, when i saw it, it just makes me go HELLO!

Lexus LFA

I fell in love with this car as soon as Top Gear introduced it. It just makes you wanna tear something with your teeth! Uh. I just made it sound sexual, but it's not. It's just THAT awesome.

The thing about it is, that it looks completely breathe-taking when it's in a show room or in a show like Top Gear. Mainly because of car wax and the lightings, creating such an enormous effect and made it looked flawless. It's just something like a dull-looking apple and a shiny apple. You'd pick a shiny one, but only later you found out about people deliberately used harmful wax to attract consumers. Ill-minded business men.

Anyway, my point is, when it's not in that kind of position anymore, it just looks so gigantic on the track that it's going to suck and eat everything that gets in their way. And it will give a smirk in the process of it.

But, that's just a one second thought. With constant waxing and perfect weather, it does look like an amazing car to own. But not all of us has about 375,000 pounds to spend on. It's a rich man's world, after all.

Although there are a few more cars that i know about, but these three are just the cars that i randomly thought about. Ehm, just a short note. Yes i do like cars, i like speed and all. But i have to say, i don't know much about it like their horsepower and all that. The only thing that i ever remember is carbon-fibre, that's that. But hey, no matter what i will still have a thing for cars. (;

OH one more thing, as usual i have something to share. Saw this on MTV just today, enjoy!

and my GOD Stephen Fry is on Bones season 5! Two of my favourite in ONE! How brilliant is that?!

Vampire Weekend!

2010-12-10T23:21:00.005+08:00

This may be seemingly unusual, especially if you personally know me, that i actually do feel annoyed by my neighbour. Though where i am from, part of our education system teaches you to always be friendly and nice to almost everyone, in a specific definition that has been invented by some genius who wants us to write down the EXACT same definition of it in our examination. Weird, but utterly true. But to be honest, we don't really care neither.

How did the annoyance started is actually quite simple - it all started with kids and a football. A squishy one, you can nibble a piece of it during a football match when you're starving, and it magically taste like marshmallows.

My family members don't really give a damn (at first), because honestly, we are not those nosy neighbours who deliberately wanted to get annoyed with our neighbours, one of the reasons being 'i haven't got a life', no. But it definitely hit my mom in a sensitive spot when the football landed on her car several times. She actually told me that she wanted to take that football and throw it near a lake where we lived. I laughed so hard I cried a little when i saw her reaction. But unfortunately she meant it.

The kids next door somehow don't really know what 'character' and 'moral' is. Or maybe a sensible head. Because they don't even show a puppy face that all kids should always do and melt me, and apologized. They didn't. And the worst part is - it's the middle of the night. I understand the joy of playing sports at night, believe me. But playing sports that actually ANNOY people, now that's a first.

My mom told me about when me and my brother were kids, they used to be absolute drama queens when we played badminton, as if we kidnapped their kids or set their house on fire. Once, the shuttle-cock landed in their compound. They are such arseholes that, when they saw it, they make sure that you know they know that the shuttle-cock is where it shouldn't have been - and they will walk into their own house and close the door.

She wanted to do the 'throw ball in lake and give them the eye' thing. I went to her and said : "Okay, mom, don't do it. You told me that they are being assholes when we were younger right? Now, you're actually going to be just like them. Don't do that. Because if you do, you just showed them that you have the same standard as them. WHICH, you're don't. Right?"

Her faced changed as if she just had a sudden epiphany (mainly by me), she walked around the living room with both of her hands around her hips and go : "You're right, Mun. You're right." She goes to the kitchen and there it sounded again : "Yes, you are absolutely right." I grinned at her actions which reminded me how much i adore her.

The next thing i know, i heard glass shattering and my neighbour shouting. I got a bit curious, so i wore my brown flip flops and walked lazily to checked out what happened. I saw that the kids were gone and their door has been shut. I looked up at their gate, i bended down and had the biggest belly laugh.

One of their light bulb is missing.

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AND I'M SUPER EXCITED WHEN I GOT...

Vampire Weekend's Contra! ♥

Music and cats are my kinda thing.

2010-12-03T14:43:00.009+08:00

I've always have a thirst of adding more into my collection of CD Albums. So far I had a couple of CD albums that i'm equally fond of.

Proud of having these albums!

Kaiser Chiefs - Yours Truly, Angry Mob

The song 'The Angry Mob' had me addicted and i was singing it for days. Catchy lines like

'we are the angry mob,

we read the papers everyday,

we like who we like,

we hate who we hate,

but we're all so easily swayed.'

In the main stream, it is hard to find a band or an artist whom there is not one song from them that you don't really like. Hence, i like indie bands very much, because naturally they write and produce great songs. They don't get famous just because of their one hit wonder and sold gazillions of albums for fans who don't really see past their hair-flipping-baby-calling magic, as they called it.

Kaiser Chiefs - Off With Their Heads

God, i love this album like mad! To be honest, each song really can make you move if you feel gloomy or even when you're a wee bit obese. Honestly, nobody can make music like the Brits do.

'and i will not lie to you,

but i definitely only give you half the truth!'

And i was a bit gutted because they only went to Singapore for concert and not in Malaysia. :|

From ALL of the concerts they had, even if it was in Singapore or Leeds or Glastonbury or others, all i can hear is 'they are awesome' and 'God the crowd went insane!' and 'i can't believe that they sang live THAT good!'. How can you not want to jump into the concert and had a blast?

Athlete - Black Swan

This is a totally different kind of music compared to Kaiser Chiefs. While KC went for the CROWD GOES WILD! approach, Athlete is on the track for producing beautiful, life-reminiscing, behind-my-eyelids kinda thing. Which is lovely. The single Black Swan Song has the power to make you say excuses like 'i'm having sand in my eyes'. Unfortunately, i can't put the video embed code here, so i'll put something else! Here's the link, in case you want it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3WCFTKI5lu4

The track Rubik's Cube is absolutely my favourite out of the whole album. Not that others are not good, it's just that this track rings the right tune in my ear drums. Enjoy!

Bunkface - Phobia Phoney

Malaysian band - what's not to like?! I went to MTV World Stage 2010 and i saw them live, they pretty much kicked ass!

Amy Winehouse - Back To Black

Yes, i am a fan of Amy. ;)

Razorlight - Slipway Fires

Okay, to be honest, i never even run a background check on this album. Meaning, i didn't even Googled for the reviews and listen to ANY of the tracks before buying this album. I sort of trusted my instinct. Besides, i listened to their latest single In The Morning. I like it, so i think this album was a good go. At first, it was a wee bit weird. But sooner or later i DO enjoy this album. I always play this when it was a lazy afternoon. SO background music. (:

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I couldn't think of any good metaphor, but album to me is sort of me needing blood as a vampire. Okay, even TALKING about vampire i thought about Twilight. God damn.

I remember sitting on the floor watching tv (yes i prefer the floor rather the sofa, but with something to lean on), i saw Twilight on TV. I watched 5 minutes of it, the scene where Edward and Bella were in the forest, him flashing his diamond-shining bod, and Bella going : "You're beautiful."

Really? Of all the things to say, you're beautiful?

What's more, she said she's not afraid that Edward has killed people to um-num-num. I swore i remember hearing Charlie saying : "That might be love in the fictional world, but that's just stupid."

Genius ring-a-ding-ding! ;)

Not sure what i'm talking about (how could you?!), here's the video!

OH right. Got a bit off topic there..

I was saying, that owning albums is quite gleeful. When i was travelling, and i forgot to take along my headphones, i get quite agitated when there's repetitive songs on the radio. The worst part it, repetitive song on one station, another station is talking about what is their pet's worst nightmare, while the other stations are looping scripted-laughing advertisements about will-writing companies?

"Thank God I've written a will before i die!"

*fakes laugh among the dead*

So the Kaiser Chiefs CD will always be in my car. But of course, i would always find something new in the scene, thus the chase begins. I would first start finding it in a normal CD/DVD store like Speedy. But usually what i listened to doesn't show up there, so i would go to Mid Valley's Rock Corner. Usually they had like a whole tons of alternative artists album. I think i might have a chance of getting Vampire Weekend's Contra there. BUT NOW! My national exam is unofficially over (uh, EST. But honestly speaking, how are we gonna study?), i can go out and hunt with a spear.

I wasn't feeling totally 'HELL YEAH' when i finished my last paper. I didn't go all mad and crazy and cooky. It didn't make me go THAT happy. Just glad, is all. While me and Kristal (my good mate) was walking up to her car yesterday, i looked at her and said : "There's something i wanted to do for a really long time."

She looked at me for a sec. I throw my bag on the tar road, and just sat down. She joined me without any 'what the hell are you doing?! Yerrrr you are so dirty!" or hesitations or anything like that. How can you not love someone like that? (:

So both of us, sitting in the middle of the road in our school, enjoying the killer view that Hulu Langat has. The sky was so clear blue and mountains just stares back at you. Magnificent, isn't it? And i also almost forgot to bring back my sweater which I left it in the canteen. Thanks Kun!

Had such fun with her, Clement and Daniel.

ANYHOW! So here is my supposedly hunting list, so fingers crossed that all these are available in Malaysia!

HUNT LIST

Arctic Monkeys - Favourite Worst Nightmare

Fyfe Dangerfield - Fly Yellow Moon

Vampire Weekend - Contra

Kaiser Chiefs - Employment

And before i end this post, i will show you something cute this week instead of posting another surgery video. This is the reason why i love cats! Enjoy!

KThxBai.

Mongie. ♥

tattoos and piercing.

2010-11-28T21:24:00.009+08:00

Why, what's this? Blogging even when national examination is going on? Such big balls to oppose my own promise on not updating during exams?! Who am i? I am an idiot who promises.

I wanted to share about my thoughts on this.

Tattoo and piercing are sort of a taboo subject for some of us, especially Asians i guess. My parents, for instants, gave me the eye when i mentioned about the possibilities of getting a tattoo or piercing. I had piercings each side of my ears, so i think they get the message me of getting piercings on unusual parts.

For me i didn't really think tattoo was such a big issue. However it's obvious, that whenever someone who has tattoo you tend to look at them a wee bit longer than anybody else and my mind wanders into other thoughts like 'such a beautiful art.' or 'what does that symbol or design mean to this person?'

Who doesn't love that faint smell of mystery? That draws you in without you knowing it.

I never wanted tattoo as a people magnet. Meaning, i don't want to get a tattoo for the sake of conversation-starters during dinner or parties. Tattoo is my way of expressing, or something to remind me. The purpose. The inspiration. The thirst for my imagination. Tattoo is a symbol about yourself. It's gotta be a work of art. The 'umph'. The gorgeousness. The magnificent of it.

Paloma Faith had a gorgeous tattoo on her back! (:

Anyways. I used to had a faux tattoo on my ankle. I was pretty guttered when it was gone.

My ideal tattoo would probably be on my ankle or my wrist. OH. I actually had a sudden but quite non-related thought, sorry about that heheh. A few weeks ago, i read across Readers Digest and they always have a column where you can test your vocabulary power. And i picked up the word 'zaftig'. It generally means pleasantly plump. I personally love the word! There are women who are meaty and don't look bad - in fact they look gorgeous! Zaftig supporter all the way! (:

Whenever the word 'zaftig' pops up, the one and only actress i remember is Sara Ramirez. Known for her role as Dr. Callie Torres in Grey's Anatomy. Isn't she gorgeous?! (:

Hahah okay back to the topic about tattoo. I would want to get a tattoo with the number 505 on my wrist, if that's possible AND i actually am very sure after a long time of consideration. The number 505 comes from a meaningful song from Arctic Monkeys, yes, called 505. The song is mainly about his ex girlfriend whom stayed in a hotel room 505. But him touring around takes a toll on their relationship. The song somehow gave me some sort of haunting, i feel that it means something very important to me.

505 will be a reminder. Personally to me. To never lose touch to your love ones. Never turn your back on them. Despite anything that happen, always place them first in your heart.

505.

NEXT : Piercings.

I am very interested in getting a Monroe piercing. The picture will tell it all.

Before i do something in a hurry, i better buy those diamond piercing stickers and try it on first. Trial and error, no? (:

Time to hafal Moral nilais again. God help us all.

Signing out,

Mongie.

Jump For Joy !

2010-11-19T23:44:00.010+08:00

Although next week is our national examination and i'll be seeing my friends again in the battlefield, but today is what i called my official last day of school! Ah, how bizarre is this?! I've never felt so mixed-feelings before. Once i really sip in the reality that i'm finally released out from the school walls for life, it just hits me.

This is it, i thought. I'm about to step into the hard cold world. It's my time to triple E - Express, Explore, Experience. This is it.

Spent my last school day with absolute delight and shine. Never thought i've met so many unique individuals who blend in and click together so perfectly! Had fun with my mates in the school pool in the morning, even though i'm drenched because of the monkey boys!

Had a lovely lunch with my 3 favourite-and-i-will-miss-them-much mates! Oh man i love you guys. (:

*Credits to Ghia for these awesome photos! :D

Good luck to all the candidates and friends! Let's just get this over with, fight the fight! We can do this shit! *SHOUTS!*

For the last time till after examinations, signing off,

Mongie.

Anisha Kumari, Kristal Ho & Teo Ze-Lyn. I love you guys. ♥

Fyfe!

2010-11-12T11:59:00.008+08:00

Currently listening to : Underdog - Kasabian

There we go, a few more photos from my graduation.

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Our Defence Minister Ahmad Zaid Hamidi ACTUALLY stated this in the Parliment : the reason Chinese and Indians made up only a tiny proportion of Army recruits was because their "patriotism spirit is not high enough".

How would you feel if you were like me, a Malaysian?

Unbelievable.

It's disgusting, ya know? To live in somewhere where racism flies around that i called home. High-profile but clearly overrated people ( ANYBODY involved with politics ) can get away with crimes and racism remarks as long as they are in power or a clear evidence of wealth, while normal citizens as us are being toyed by ill-minded politicians.

How? Simple. Example, alright? Let's say some rakyat did something that only barely shows any act of racism. This particular imaginary politician, let's call him A, is yelling and screaming about this rakyat's wrong-doings and what his punishment should be.

Why? Because this is a tactic showing anti-racist fanatics that he is doing hell of a job. Thus, they will like him enough to support him, vote for him in the future post or whatever it is. For other simple-minded rakyats, they will just go 'oh, he's doing his job. Okay, at least he's better than others-lah."

Eventually A will be on top. But whether will he do a good job or torture the rakyat - that's a completely other story.

And i'm just a 17 year old telling an imaginary story.

What i want to say is. I'm a Malaysian citizen. It kills me when people said that i'm not patriotic. If a few years back this comment comes out i'll probably storm out and lash and go all 'fark you' and all that. But no. I've learned that lashing out on things isn't exactly going to change anything to good. I, as a rakyat, would like to plead you politicians to do what your job is supposed to do instead of giving a not-a-second-thought comment and expect people to respect you. If you have absolutely NO characters of a good politicians but just sit there and suck our hard-work money from tax (bloody, bloody taxes) to sit ALONE in your 380-room mansion, if so, please leave immediately.

The truth's getting out. The rakyats are getting smarter. And we are not tolerating any longer.

Pfft. Tax in Malaysia. Don't even let me go there. Where does it all go? Are we ACTUALLY getting better transportation, better road conditions, better in lots of basic things? Go ahead and drive your car around town. Your car would probably weep and die hitting those potholes on the road. My 1st generation CRV already has Parkinson disease. And besides, buying a car in Malaysia cost more than buying a car in UK. That's the reason why lots of Malaysian just set sail for UK and say hello to Audi R8 and say bye-bye to Proton. Just sayin'.

OH about the 100 tower thing? Yeah. Googled it on the net. Found out that there's forums that has members from all over the world, criticizing about Malaysia's plan in building that money-wasting piece. They laughed, feel hopeless and feel that our government lacks priority-thinking - for US Malaysians. How pathetic is that?

And what's the funniest thing i've heard about this incident? Tan Sri

Muhyiddin Yassin stated that PNB should ignore the critics of the RM5 Billion project, because -they are jealous-. And i quote : "They are probably jealous that PNB has the capability to embark such a big project that will benefit the country."

I had the biggest belly laugh ever.

*settles myself from laughter*

There's just so many things wrong about this project. We shall laugh together.

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Anything can happen in Malaysia, ain't it? It's actually quite funny how things work. But there are some people being dead because of hows things work, so not that funny, really. Anybody know about the recent Batu Sapi and Galas by-election? If no, then i suggest you look it through.

Now here's one of the funny things about Malaysia, click the link below to see the full report.

Even the 'dead' voted in Batu Sapi

According to reports, there are 156 people who are above 100 years old appeared in the electoral rolls of the by-election!

You might go : "There are people who live over 100 years old, not that surprising, i guess."

OH i'm sorry, because it turns out, they are actually dead.

Ahhh tactics.

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I've been a very big fan of Fyfe Dangerfield. He's absolutely a delight. Enjoy! (:

Signing off,

Mongie.

wasabi graduation! (: ♥

2010-11-03T22:15:00.008+08:00

We have graduated!

Senior 5 Hope 2010.

Just that sentence alone sounds so awesome.

me with best mate + head prefect! (:

me with Erina. Will miss you! If can, next year i come back to school for YOUR graduation. :P

me with Aziz the monyet and Kris. (:

me with the HOT Audery ( :P ), Kris and Lynzie.

Class photo! :D

(: ♥

I loved the fact that i'm moving to something more serious. To study something i want to study. More than studying different things AND passing everything of it. Oh right, SPM isn't over, so er, yeah okay i have to pass everything. :|

The fact that i can't see what i usually see (friends, teachers, cat) is going to be hard. I will miss that. And i laughed about the fact that i will be imagining patting our school cat in college. I better go get a cat as soon as possible.

I will miss those moments in class. When my classmate Khai Ming said something really ridiculous but hilarious, me and Nisha will join in the insanity (eg. playing with our voodoo dolls by Audery like we're 5 years old) while next to him Shaun will facepalm or dive his head on the table, saying why he is stuck with us.

Ah, good times GOOD TIMES. :D

Yesterday i went to Leisure Mall for lunch with a bunch of mates. Had lunch, sat down and chatted, then ciao. Had to drop Khai Ming and Shaun home when i sat Kris' car. On the way home we went to Lyn's house for a chat. Hang out, chatted and play a little drums (YAY), then ciao. Went to Kris' house and hang out with Aziz. Three of us watching reality dance show while drinking lotus peanut soup around 8pm. THEN i ciao.

Ah, good times GOOD TIMES. :D

I wish all senior 5s good luck in SPM! May everything be as smooth as peanut butter! And may life be as crunchy as cereal!

We have graduated from high school. Thats a starting point for being a young adult. Let's make the best out of it. (:

MORE PHOTOS TO COME!

Signing off,

Mongie. ♥

i don't want to be a bland, unhealthy and artificial cereal box.

2010-11-01T18:38:00.011+08:00

i get that you're pretty. We ALL get it. but is there need of taking 1473965 photos of yourself AND bring yourself to a standard of calling yourself ugly? IF there is even a slight chance of you thinking that the photos were unpleasant, there's no hell of a way that you would post it, for Buddha's sake! It's logical thinking. Hey there's nothing wrong bout it, everybody does that! Who wants to post a shit-faced photo of themselves and let the world to see and actually not wanting to slice your own face off?

If you're pretty and you admit it, at least it's not a bad thing. But if you are, and you said that you're fugly, i have absolutely nothing to say.

Situation :

-posts a photo-

Caption : "I know i am ugly."

-people complimenting-

Replied with : "No i'm not hahaha stop it! *4-chan face *"

lolWHAT?!

*face-palm*

Relax. Before you go self-admitting that i'm talking about you ( this might be the perasan ones : oh, oh oh my God, she's talking about me! Oh no, i have 1473964 photos. Oh darn you have found my weak spot. I hate you. *trashes in Cbox* ) , it's just a random profile of someone i do NOT know ( From Johor or something?). And who knows i stumble upon something THIS traumatic. Just sayin'.

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Being awake for more than 28 hours straight is something i would usually not do. The maximum hours i was awake was probably, yeah, not that much. However, believe or not, or maybe it's just how my body and mind are designed which i believe it is much different than all of you (!) , I've been able to focus in studies AND blurt out absolute random crap, juggling both VERY well.

The thoughts from class today and after reading Aziz's SAT books pretty much conclude into what i am about to type below. And these are just my thoughts, which doesn't really says right or wrong. Depends on your OWN thinking.

Marks in examinations. To me, it doesn't really matter because my parents are flexible, as long as i don't get into the whole idiotic crap package like doing drugs / smoking / randomly having sex, but getting average results then i'm a-okay. BUT. There are parents who want a bright future for their kids, that they want their children to score 90% and above. Yeah, when you see the sentence, yeah it doesn't really affect much, because hey, we're Asians, it's a pattern.

It's like directing a lamp and shine straight at them. But some parents tend to go overboard. In the end it just give the kids sunburn.

But what concerns me is that kids might get stressed out, having traumatic experiences, because some parents might get out the cane and whack the shit out of us. To me, numbers doesn't really matter. Yes, grades are important. But being over-obsessive over numbers just don't make sense to me.

Our education system has somewhat became an information-absorbing system. We absorb not to learn - in order to get more marks in exams. It's all about marks marks marks that sum up, bringing you between getting an A or an A+. Honestly speaking, so what kids had an excellent grades? With this education system still up and going, i fear that children are gonna become card box - boring. With no subject charging children's unique way of creativity, inspiration doesn't stay with you forever - with constant card-box technique in education, it may drain out any beautiful difference between one child and another.

How twisted is that? I imagine this as a factory, producing thousands and thousands of thoughtless zombies. That is scary. Not to mention it's against rights of channeling your individuality!

I'm extremely lucky because my parents are flexible, modern and not to mention, nice. I get to pour my energy into different things like music, books and most importantly friends. And not friends who feed you drugs and go 'yeaaah this iz teh shyt man, try it outttt.' I'm fortunate to be studying around lovely people who express themselves in a way they should.

However, there are still things lacking in order to educate kids, so that the younger generation can be more civilized, smart and using more logical-thinking.

Sex education. This is one of the issues that was frequently mentioned - but it's never ever done. In the newspapers headlines smack you on the face, reading 'sex education is important' or 'sex education is the key to prevent baby-dumping'. But all we hear are noises.

Multiple sources gave multiple excuses. Thus nobody do anything, what, you just sit around and wish for someone to say : "HEY! I found the perfect teachings / objectives for sex education!"

There's no such thing. It all comes down to working together - individually, family, society and most importantly - the country. Without brainstorming and researches, this will always be an empty dream.

There are thousands of baby-dumping cases. AIDS/HIV cases are on the rise. Some say it's is an touchy and sensitive subject, thus slowly it fades away, thinking the problem will go away on its own, just because they are embarrassed to talk about it.

There is absolutely nothing to be embarrassed about. We're in such an amazing era, where technology and science morph together, magnificently. We're talking about humans here. You and me. What's with the 'i must create problems for myself because i just can't bloody adopt changes' attitude?

Besides sex education, kids these days lack critical thinking and also manners. Additional mathematics, physics, biology, chemistry - they score and PWNED the subjects. But when it comes to issue that involve critical thinking - they were stunned like deer in headlights. Because all these while education system has been training them how to answer questions on paper - not in life.

Manners. Man, this is one hell of a problem here in Malaysia. I've been raised of having an invisible but steel-strong respect for elders. Doesn't matter it's a stranger or a teacher or your family members, have some respect. I see little trolls these days running around, being bad-ass. Being cool.

My foot in your face, more likely.

It doesn't show how 'cool' you are. Honestly it makes you look like a complete uncivilized fool. If the future leaders are some ill-mannered bastards, might as well jump down from the Penang Bridge than letting these people running a nation. Contoh-lah.

In conclusion : it's bloody time for a change.

Signing off,

Mongie ♥

when it's 3 in the morning and you see Pegasus flying around, you know you should head to bed.

2010-10-27T01:14:00.005+08:00

obviously it was time for me to sleep, but as some of you know on 20th August 2010 around 3am my house was broken into by 5 or 6 robbers. Which can cause insomnia and insanity in some human beings, namely me. :D

Being paranoid as hell is one of the symptoms, and let's face it, you tend to hung on to your purse a little tighter, or check at the rear view mirror whether you have been followed or not OR starring at a car like crazy when it's an unfamiliar car to you.

(Apparently they don't run a background check on whether how loaded are you (!) . Till this day i'm still confused over what the hell the robbers were thinking, that we're loaded or something. On the contrary, by their faces [body language, because technically we can't see their faces] of disappointment and frustration, we're not. So my warning to you is : BE CAREFUL.)

At the rate of this, i might, or we can say i AM already going insane. Thank you, farked up society. On the bright side, today's news involved a broke-in gang which consist 5 robbers had been arrested by the police. They set up a trap, and i shall say, brilliant! Though some part of me wished that it was the exact gang that broken into my house and cause blood shed, because i want them to be slammed in the head by the law and justice. Slammed is not the right word, probably the word SMASH is correct. >:)

In another news, Indonesia is being struck by volcano eruptions and tsunami. There were not only struck by one, but SEVERAL earthquakes. The first was measured about 7.3 in the Richter scale. Then soon a few more hit. There are still aftershocks happening.

My beloved brother used to say that natural disasters are used to control the human population on Earth. And oddly i couldn't disagree. With human population growing by the second, babies come and elders died, there's just people everywhere. Overcrowded. God had to do SOMETHING, eh?

Just to clear things up, i do believe in God. My brother on the other hand, not really. Because we're raised as Buddhist / Taoist (we're equally confused by which religion we're in. seriously.), my brother just picked up the joystick (man i love the smell of it!) and pray and just forget about it, move on.

But somehow, with people dying around you and accidents and chaos and war and disasters. I can't help but wondering - does God exist?

Some part of me never wanted to lose faith in God. I love Him. When i had my joy, and my sorrow, God would always be there where i want to thank or pray for the pain to pass, invincible but always important number one. I don't carry around statues of Buddha or something like that everywhere i go, He will always be inside of ME.

Yet i have to make things very clear. Even though i believe in Him, it doesn't mean i'm a total fanatic or whatever. If you believe in something, it's fine. Don't get obsess or attached to it. In the end you'll just go coo-coo-bananas.

Though that love would never die, i was wondering why are there people suffering? I'm given this life of luxury. I know that when i get home my parents will be there. I know i won't starve. I get all my needs AND wants. We tend to whine and complaint about what phones or computer or branded goods we're using. But half way, i see what i have to see to wake up.

I've been given this realization. And i'm pretty sure i want to do something about it.

Erik, my drum instructor whom i adore as he is a good mentor, in drums AND life, told me that maybe i should pick up journalism. Sadly, if i do pick up this profession i need to buck up on my vocabulary as i can't beat the odds of my friends Shanan, Yunzie and Izzie! These three people are insanely brilliant in English and i drool a lot at their knowledge in the English vocabulary!

Anyway, journalism can actually make you go around and discover something. Snoop around, do a little digging. It's either that, or put on your bullet-proof vest and run on the battle-field to cover stories or run around poor and rural areas to let the world know what poverty and the desperation of fresh water and food feels like. It does ring a mighty bell, that's how it got to me.

We have the internet. Clearly this is the most powerful resource we have to find some information. Around KL and/or Selangor there's gotta be some soup kitchen that needs volunteers. So my plan is, after my national examination (SPM), i want to gather around a few good mates and help out in any soup kitchen or voluntary work involving the society.

So, let's give something back, aye?! (:

And that's about it. Signing off !,

Mongie. ♥

put your hands up if you think The Cribs is bloody amazing. ♥

2010-10-10T15:21:00.007+08:00

I am alive.

For some reasons after yesterday, the sentence ' i am still alive' actually popped into my head for the very first time. This never occur to me even when i got robbed, that things might go wrong and i might go somewhere nice or somewhere not so nice. In short, i might die, i guess.

For some reason, i do not fear death, except if i die due to drowning? Ironically, it does matter when somebody else dies. But when it is me in the shoes of death, to me it doesn't really matter. Time and time again i would picture myself sitting on a chair, watching my own funeral and watch as friends or family or even someone that i absolutely have no idea existed come one by one.

It wasn't a morbid thought. It's just a sudden thought of death. And i'm not dreading or looking forward to it neither. But hey, when it's time to go, you gotta go. Which reminds me of a quote, 'we're going to hell anyway, let's travel first class' or 'and all the way to hell i'll bring a guitar and sing'.

But here i am. STILL alive. A few scratches here and there but it's alright. It's life. Personally, a life without wounds, scratches and bruises is not much of a good life. Imagine that! You exist in life, you roam around in this world and you go back - with absolutely nothing. Not only it seems like a waste, it just makes me go : what the hell did you do for the past years?

Us. Alive. We are actually still living and breathing. It actually means that we have something to do. There is something in life that we haven't accomplish yet. I waiting for it and i'm not going anywhere. (:

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I feel like a Youtube addict. Because I've been spending my time finding awesome bands on Youtube after completing my work. And lo and behold! Found a couple of awesome songs. I feel so complete. *tears of joy*

# I Wish I Was Someone Better - Blood Red Shoes. #

it was so awesome that you won't even realize there's only two members in this band, love the intro.

# Martell - The Cribs. #

Hey it's The Cribs. It's just bloody entertaining. Ryan Jarman FTW! :D

# Bang Bang You're Dead - Dirty Pretty Things. #

# Hey Scenesters - The Cribs. #

Although it's quite old, but it's just brilliant. This is before Johnny Marr joined in, if i'm not mistaken.

# I Want To Hear What You Have Got To Say - The Subways. #

Another band which i adore. I like lot's of their songs, like Shake! Shake!, Streetfighter. (:

# Let's Dance To The Joy Division - The Wombats. #

Be happy, damn it.

# Take Her Back - The Pigeon Detectives. #

MY FAVOURITE IS.. DRUM ROLLS PLEASE!

# I'm A Realist - The Cribs. #

Okay, i'm being bias. But what can i do? They are just GOOD. I think i need to get their album. Fingers-cross for me that it's available in Malaysia!

On the other hand, i have a thing for military jackets. There's something about em, makes you look so bad ass, mysterious, edgy, hot! If i'm not mistaken, it's quite an in thing now on the runway and branded names, isn't it?

This is gorgeous!

While i was looking for images of military jackets, i stumbled upon this website, which i find it very useful. There's entries about what to invest and what NOT to invest in clothes, trends, style and stuff like that. Do click!

http://manolobig.com/category/elements-of-style/

So there goes my Sunday. I'll see you guys soon. (:

Signing off, wishing you the best of luck and love,

Mongie. ♥

you can take my temperature, it's like a hundred degrees! ♥

2010-09-17T08:44:00.010+08:00

Only these days i realized how much music has actually taken up my daily basis. I always am plugged into my Meizu MP3. Bought it from China. I gotta admit, it's cheap AND lasting (which surprises me even more).

Let's see.

Woke up early in the morning. If there's still time, listens to song for a few loops while laying on bed. In the car, i'll listen to Kaiser Chiefs CD. In school, my memory MP3 in my head runs as well! After school, my brother introduced another epic song. Downloaded it. *Check!* After dinner, when using computer, when packing, when reading. It's almost a 24/7 kinda thing. It has actually become a habit.

I actually have to thank my brother for a tiny part of it. He started listening to Linkin Park when he was in high school. I followed suit as always. Then the whole exploration about music begun! At first when i was 11-15 i used to listen to whats ONLY in the charts. Never really used Youtube or Google to dig some awesome songs out. BUT as i reached 16, BOOM. Alternate music, jazz and all that start to jumble into my favourites!

I did a list of songs as well when, like what, a year ago? I feel good when friends tell me that they love the songs and thanked me for the list. But the list was more on an alternate, Grey's Anatomy-ish sort of music. But i'm more into beats and electric guitar swayin' sort of thing. I'm pretty sure things will change again in the future, as always!

Uh, not following HOW much i love it that sort of order. It's assorted. Who counts down to their favourite song, seriously?

1. You Want History - Kaiser Chiefs.

2. Pari-Pari Bawah Angin - Meet Uncle Hussain.

3. Back In Black - ACDC.

4. The Violet Hour - Sea Wolf

5. BrianStorm - Arctic Monkeys. (God the intro is GOOD.)

6. Short Skirt Long Jacket - Cake.

7. Crimewave - Crystal Castles.

8. Dance Wiv Me - Dizzee Rascal & Calvin Harris ft. Chrome

9. Turn The Lights Out - Hadouken!

10. Shes A Genius - Jet. (Ahhh, the classic. :D )

11. I Predict A Riot - Kaiser Chiefs.

12. Points Of Authority - Linkin Park.

13. The Last Song - McFly.

14. The Cribs - Mirror Kissers.

15. Na Na Na Na Naa - Kaiser Chiefs.

16. Standing In The Way Of Control - The Gossip.

17. Love Is Noise - The Verve.

18. Somebody Told Me - The Killers.

19. Can't Stop - Red Hot Chilli Peppers.

20. In The Morning - Razorlight.

21. Undisclosed Desire - Muse.

22. Take My Temperature - Kaiser Chiefs.

Whoa just vomited my favourite songs. :D

Anddd before i go, a little something to show you guys. I've been a fan of Bill Baileys. So enjoy.

Signing off,

Mongie.

Cepat balik ya. :3 ♥ MISS YOU AND YOUR JOKES! :P

Thank You Very Much. ♥

2010-08-26T22:56:00.002+08:00

Although almost a week has past, but i still can't get over it. It's still in my head. Correction, it will always be in my head. Thank you, for making my biggest phobia in life a reality. __|__ And i dreamt about them. Freaking twice. I need this to be sucked out of my head, thank you very much.

But life, as we know it, doesn't stop for you. Somehow in my head there's a tiny teddy bear with fangs telling me 'oh boohoo, get over it.'

We move on. I move on. People on this earth move on. It has become a part of my history. But whether to start a completely new and white chapter, is utterly up to me and only me.

*flip*

WELCOME TO CHAPTER 23!

But it always does that, i mean. A completely dirty and fully written page is hundred percent more interesting than a clean sheet. Time to take out some highlighters and start colouring rainbows and some flowers while i'm at it.

ANYHOW! I am pretty much loving the British show called Never Mind The Buzzcock. When i first mention the name to my friends, my guy friends usually highlighted the word 'cock' with a grin. Oh well, boys will be boys. xD

But it is absolutely a brilliant show. Well mostly it's about music. And i freaked out when Stephen Fry was a guest captain once. I first noticed Stephen Fry when he was in the movie V For Vendetta as Gordon Deitrich. It was indeed one of my favourite movies of all time. If someone is willing to fork out some money for no apparent reason to buy me a Guy Fawkes mask, that would make me very happy! :D

And Charlie Mcdonnell also mentioned about how much he loved Stephen Fry, and of course i noticed multiple times him mentioning Doctor Who, apparently a famous TV show in Britain. BUT us Malaysian were watching Family Guy on Fox and How I Met Your Mother on Star World. Yeah. :)

SO! Back to Never Mind The Buzzcock. I stumbled upon this show when i was searching for Kaiser Chief's lead man Ricky Wilson on Youtube. And eventually i found the video where he was a guest. He even arm-wrestle some random British chick artist that i don't really care about! How about that? :D

Then the next video i viewed was Ricky Wilson being the guest host. As usual, he was brilliant in it! :)

PART 2

PART 3

According to the comments, the best host was Mark Lammar. I didn't really watch the show that was hosted by him, but i watched the ones that were hosted by Simon Amstell.

I. Absolutely admire this guy!

He's mean. Sarcastic. Witty. Gay, but adorable! :D

Well you would have to watch the show to find out yourselves! Go to Youtube and just type in Never Mind The Buzzcock Simon Amstell and there you go! Explore, good people. This is also the guy who got fired from Nickelodeon for being too 'sarcastic and mean to kids' and made Britney Spears cried during an interview. How lovely can this man ever be?

Till next time!

Signing off,

Mongie. ♥

how do you sleep at night?

2010-08-20T21:50:00.003+08:00

I was suppose to blog about my birthday surprise my classmates had thrown for me, i even thought about snapping pictures of each the presents my buddies gave and post it in my blog as an appreciation.

So last night, i took the camera with me. Originally the camera was located at my living room. I remember daddy asking me : "What are you doing?" I said i am just taking it with me so i can charge it. So i went to bed around 12am. It was raining so as you can imagine the surroundings, meaning how nice it is to sleep right?

This happened when i was STILL asleep, by the way.

So my brother was sleeping in his room. It was near 3am, i think. Out of a sudden, there were people trying to barge in through his door. When the door was opened, a man approached my brother whom was sleeping. My brother woke up and immediately hit the man on his ear. He learned muay thai, so he knows a thing or two, i guess. Plus my brother is physically fit. Until now, his hands were still black and blue. So you can imagine the impact the man had took.

So he hit the guy. SECOND guy comes in with a parang and placed it besides his neck. My brother knew he couldn't do anything as the THIRD and FORTH guy came and clamp him down. So he remained calm. The robbers asked my brother to open the back door. Honestly we don't use the back door. We had NO clue how it works.

There's where i came in.

I was sleeping nicely. All of a sudden, a loud bang is all i hear. The lights from the staircase revealed at least 3 men when the door flung open. My door was destroyed. I was screaming because well, that's my body's initial reaction. I think my screaming must be annoying as two robbers shush me as quiet as they could. They asked me where is the gold. I'm thinking to myself : "Are you fucking kidding me? Gold? How on earth i could have gold?"

I was still in a blur. Sleepy-ness and confusion steps in, plus adrenalin never left me. I told him no. BECAUSE I REALLY DON'T HAVE! WTF?

So i was being pushed up to my brother's room. While i was being forced to enter my brother's room, the only thing on my mind is shit i don't want to get raped. You can take my wallet my guitar my phone my camera - but if you so as much as violating my body. I swear to God - i will fight till the end.

I try to delay time.Well actually i was freaking out THUS i delay the time. Seriously. I was like why?! The man was clearly annoyed and just call me to go. When i saw my brother sitting on his bed, while robbers ransacking his belongings, i knew at least im safe. They won't harm me.

As a few robbers were tying the both of us on the bed, the leader (i think?) asked my brother where is the gold and cash. My brother just stared at him. He said he has none. You wanna know why? Because clearly we DON'T HAVE IT! We never do!

I think the robber was pissed or something. Me and my brother were unusually calm. My brain won't stop working. I've been staring at the floor with my eyes wide open for a period of time. Things just flow in and out of my mind. Is this it? I asked myself. Is this the part where they are going to kill us? The part of not knowing is the scariest. If they can tie you up like this, chances are they can kill us, no?

One of the robber tried to tie my mouth to keep it shut. He actually used my brother's jacket and tie it.

Here's where my parents came in.

When they broke down my brother's door, my parents heard the banging noise, and thought that my brother was doing something in his room. So my parents decided to go check on him. My dad slowly pee-d and walk down. I think by the time they walked down, they heard another banging noise (which is my room). So they suspected something amiss and want to check it out even more.

The 1st thing they notice is the shoes. Usually our shoes were messy, in front of the door. But it was perfectly aligned. From the minute my dad opened the door and walked in, he saw an intruder. My dad's automatic response : fight.

Macho, kan? Mong men, ftw.

They fought. My dad was trying to defend himself. The robber has a weapon - my dad has bare hands. Life is not fair, my friend. My dad had to take the chair and defend himself and he punched him a couple of times (way to go, dad!).

When my dad and one of the robber guarding the main door were struggling, of course there will be shouting and things falling to the floor. Plus at that time, my mom has been yelling from the top of her lungs and she uses pots and pans to create noises to attract the neighbours attention. I can hear her yelling with such stress in her voice. I was thinking "oh God mom please be okay please be okay." The robbers tying me and the rest of them heard the noise and immediately took everything including the parang and went down in the speed of lightning, man.

All i can think about is OH SHIT - DAD. Please for the love of everything, please don't harm my dad. I was so afraid that i started closing my eyes and my heart beat went faster and faster. I don't want ANYTHING to happen to my dad. It's 6 men against my dad. It's just not fucking fair!

My brother, calm as ever, he told me to not think about it. Just calm down. Don't think about it.

The next few minutes of SILENCE are the worst. I was like oh God. Why is it so QUIET? And all the cuss words start to fly out. I only cuss during emergency - and this is DEFINITELY an uncontrollable emergency! Beside me, my brother was trying so hard, with all his strength to break free of the wires that are tying his hands. I was washed out from the fact that i don't know whether my parents are safe or not.

Suddenly i saw a figure walking up the stairs. It was my dad. With blood dripping all over his body. He was shirtless and bright red lines was all i see. He was injured from the head. I immediately felt like crying and when he looked at me with a face that says it all - i fight till the end.

He ordered my brother to untie me. He tried to untie me himself at 1st, my arms were also dabbed by his blood. But my brother manage to break free (i was like how does he do that?!) and he untied me. All i can feel at that moment was rage. Anger. Fatigue. Pissed. You come and steal things, i honestly have nothing to say. But. You injured my father. You cross the line, dude. This situation is FUBAR - Fucked Up Beyond Any Recognition.

I was like untying myself on the leg while being in a division of pissed and wanting to cry.

The police came really fast. But they could have capture them if only minor mishaps like informing the wrong taman (yeah that's what happen to us, but still they are quick, yo) is avoided. I was surprised at the speed of the arrival of the police. When i walked down. The living room was filled with blood. The couch. The wall. Blood were all over. I saw the computer table was pushed and the speakers fell down. Then i knew the struggling happened exactly here.

I went holy crap. This looks like those crime scene in those CSI shows, but this was no joke. These were my father's blood. We have to get dad to the hospital.

My mom called the police right after she yell for help. Even the ambulance came, so my brother accompany my dad to go to the hospital near by. There were a few police officer, so they questioned us and all the usual stuff.

Later on the detectives came. After the questioned us and stuff, me and mom had to wait for the forensic team to come. So we talked about how fortunate it is for our family. My mom told me she was so worried when she didn't hear a single voice upstairs. I'm like Ma, me too, i freaked out when i didn't hear anything downstairs. Both of us smile at each other with relief. I know that mom was heart-broken because jewelries with sentimental values where stolen. Those were gifts by my grandmother. The watch that was stolen, i knew all along that she would be heart-broken. Because that is my dad's hard-earning money and the 1st watch he bought her.

I can look at all these when i look straight into her eyes. She looks so fragile and heart-broken. But we remind each other that we still have each other and none of us are seriously injured (except for dad, while we were still worried for him). We talked and comfort each other until the crack of dawn. I can see that the sky starts to turn into very dark blue colour. I looked at the clock - it wasn't an accurate clock, but at least we got to see the time, lol. It was about 6 something am, if im not wrong. Then suddenly we saw my brother walking back, i'm like dude where's dad?

"I will drive my car to pick him now lah."

Fuuuh. Macho. Walk back from hospital. :D

So dad came back with 8 stitches on his head. The doctor said that it wasn't serious, it's just skin and stuff. The stitches look like antennas popping out of dad's head. I've been looking at it for the whole day. So after he came back, the forensic team came.

He thought me and my brother were husband and wife. Both of us were LOLOLOLOLOLOL-ing the whole time. So did the usual protocol, questioning, recording.

My dad explained everything to him. Luckily, thank God, the 6 men didn't attack dad at one shot. They were escaping. I was so happy to hear that they didn't attack daddy, it's like my heart became lighter or something. I dont really care what items i lost, as long as i know that daddy is okay and the family is okay, then it's all good.

The inspector wanted me to go to the balai police and do the statement thingy ( im not sure what's that call ). I was like whoa i would never picture myself going to the balai police. D:

When we were leaving, i saw a guitar-shaped case. I just simply asked him : "whoa is that a guitar?"

And he's like yeah with a smile.

So i had to go back home from balai, CLEAN every single corner because of the blood stains. I was mopping and all that. They caused a mess out of everything. Me and my mom had to CLEAN every freaking thing. I was mumbling like an old woman while mopping the blood stains. I mean seriously, robbing us AND leaving a mess and us have to clean it up. Seriously? Seriously.

After cleaning up i was so exhausted. I only slept for two hours before they broke my door (wtf!). I was so. Exhausted. I am physically okay because they didn't harm me, thank God, but im so mentally tired.

I felt so violated. This. Is my home. MY HOME. A place where i am every day and do my things and live my simple life with my family. It's such a wonderful place. And you robbers had to come and ruin everything.

Now i felt like my house is not a home anymore. I always felt like wanting to cry when i look at my own house. The phantom pain is always there, and i can guarantee you - this pain will follow me for the rest of my life.

Being robbed, being tied, heart beating so fast when you don't know how are your family members, whether are they safe or not. - ALL this is my biggest phobia. And it came true today. I'm still afraid. I'm still angry, very angry. My dad was injured protecting us. He will always be my hero. I'm the luckiest daughter in the planet because i had this brave, selfless man as my father.

I am forever grateful.

Thanks to you robbers, i will never ever felt safe in my life.

Thanks to you robbers, my father will forever had a scar on his head. Thanks to you robbers, for breaking my mother's heart for stealing her jewelries which has deep sentimental values to her and NOT just because it IS jewelries.

How do you sleep at night?

We're not wealthy people. We're such average people. I mean come on we don't own gold or have cash laying around or whatever! We're so AVERAGE! WHAT THE HELL? And one day when i was sleeping so peacefully, that's the day where you robbers left a phantom scar in my life.

After i cleaned everything, i felt so emotionally unstable that i had to cry myself to sleep. Even now i felt so. So. Angry. I can't stop thinking about the door breaking, the blood all over the floor, the bruises i have, most importantly - my father's stitches.

YOU create this. YOU made me felt so angry, i've never been so angry in my life. YOU made me feel so unsafe in life till the point of me thinking what's the point of living day by day thinking people will harm me? It's so clear that after today - it's a dog eat dog world. It's so materialistic! Everybody needs fast money!

My father. Worked so hard in his life. He never went to college - because he doesn't have the money. He was all on his own when he was just 18. He survived. Why? Because he is strong. He is determined. He never gives up. AND he never turn into crimes when he needed money. Instead, he work HARDER. THAT'S how he can afford things in life. To eat. To sleep. Basic things in life!

He did it on his own - and he did it RIGHT. He's 54 years old. What he had today is based on his hard work. So he buy some things to reward himself, what's the wrong of it? One day - everything he had was gone. WHY?!

But seriously. Don't go to the path of no return. Earn money the right way, not everything falls down from the sky. Karma will eventually get to you. People like my father worked really hard in his life. It is so unfair that it can be taken away in the matter of seconds by inhuman inconsiderate materialistic narrow-minded jackasses.

Turn back while you can. Be a man. You won't regret it.

Unicorns. shudders ♥

2010-08-10T19:13:00.006+08:00

My latest mini project. It lacks something. :|

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Weird as this may sound, but a pessimistic person as myself, i happen to like colours. Yes i just said it out loud on the internet. I. Love. Colours.

Our mind are quite shotgun-ish. What i meant by that is, once with the word 'pessimistic' we may think that OH this person must have the love for black and white. And towards a person who sees thing as half glass full loves rainbows and unicorns and power puff girls.

To me - rainbows, yes. Unicorns, no. Power puff girls, ultimate NO.

A few hours ago standing in the middle of the stationary lane in Tesco I saw cardboards and papers. Filled with all sorts of colourful stuff that you can imagine, laying in front of me. So being a teenager and a fan of colours i took a quick snap.

Pretty isn't it? If you said it wasn't, well, not sure if you ARE sane, but it's all good. Clap for yourself for having a strong opinions, my friend. SAY NO TO YES-MEN who is the main source of failure in a company or system. *coughs* Yeah i'm hinting. Yeah you.

After taking a photo of it, i told myself : "hey, maybe i should blog about this. I should blog about the jolly cheerful and happy things about colours. Yeah. Totally. This sounds like a good idea."

Apparently it wasn't really the nicest idea nor a good title to blog about.

Colours. Yeah it's nice. Yeah it's cheerful. Yeah i feel happy. Yeah the planet is filled with colours. Yeah. That's most probably it.

What i'm trying to say is. Sometimes when we like something or someone, we can't exactly explain WHY we like them so much, ain't it?

And the thing is? We don't have to explain it. In fact, don't bother writing down in a list WHY you like it. If you like it - and it is worth it (YES IT IS WORTH IT TO LOVE THE COLOURS!)

Then why the heck not?

See ya later!

Mongie.♥

is starting to learn playing the guitar!

MTV WORLD STAGE LIVE IN MALAYSIA 2010! ♥

2010-08-01T12:49:00.012+08:00

I called in to my drum studio because i don't think i can play drums today, my leg aches like crap and i can't even walk properly and stand for more than 5 minutes. DUE TO MTV WORLDSTAGE, BABY! :D

Anyways, back to the story.

So i called the studio. I expect the usual receptionist lah. Then somehow God knows why it was someone new? Talk like a pure Cina-Cina Chinese. So i told her i can't attend the class in a FRIENDLY tone like i would always do on the phone. Wahhhh, apparently this WOMAN (let's not call her a woman, im contaminating the term 'woman' if i do so. Let's call her. Ah Lian.), not only being rude in the 1st place, it sounded like she's scolding me.

Eh hello. I called in to inform kan?

"You know ah, you must call in two days before you know. Now your students how?!"

"..I'm a student."

"Oh. BUT you still need to tell me two days earlier one mahhh!!"

Oi. Ah Lian. You're telling me two days before i injure my leg i should call you lah? *TWO DAYS EARLIER* hmm. i think i will injure my legs two days later. maybe i should give you a call.

"hello?"

"Yeah, i want to call in to take a leave, because i will injure my legs after two days."

You expect this conversation ke?

Ah Lian oh Ah Lian. I salute you.

SO BACK TO MTV WORLD STAGE!

Woke up damn early and went to Sunway around 12pm. Shop around in Esprit and found a few gorgeous shirts! Went to the Sunway Lagoon entrance and waited for Kris and See Hau. Had lunch together. Almost made a baby cry. xD

After that we went and line up. LONG QUEUE! But everyone squeeze in anyway. I'm being sandwiched for the 1st time of my life. Awesome. :D

Took us hours to get there. After letting them check the bags and took the fan and ponchos, we RAN. We manage to stand like the 3rd or 4th row.

Met two girls from American School, hence they have an accent. One girl has blue eyes, i'm like OH MY GOD YOU HAVE NICE EYES TEEHEE.

Next year i'm wearing a more comfortable footwear. Although i'm wearing a converse, it was a tight converse because i'd been wearing it since form 1 and my feet has definitely grow into a giant one.

I'm buying a new converse for myself. I'm sorry 5 years converse.. :|

Before the show started it was raining. HEAVILY. Even with the poncho, i felt so washed up and drained. :( Plus the place was flooded, so all the water went into my converse. Time to say bye bye.

Had a blast although my feet are killing me while standing there for HOURS AND HOURS. Plus the advertisement was on a loop, i feel like a rat closed in a torture chamber! 1st act of the day was BUNKFACE!

I have to say, i AM a Bunkface fan from the start. But to see them perform live, is a whole different story. It just makes me love them EVEN more! Besides, they are one band who can REALLY perform live. I truly enjoy their performance from the start till finish, as my favourite songs from them were Bunk Anthem and Prom Queen.

After a long wait, it's Wonder Girls. Yesterday they are being, well, Wonder Girls-ish. I can't say much in this, because i'm not really a fan. But the fact that their hit song Nobody is a ringer, so i just party along with absolute NO clue on whatever the lyrics is for the other songs.

TOKIO HOTEL. Damnnn. I like only a couple of songs initially, so i totally didn't expect the mind f***king performance. The crowds became WILD while i joined in too because they were THAT good. And the way its lead singer Bill Kaulitz thank us and the way he speaks - OH GOD NOW THAT'S WHAT I CALL HOT. :D

After rocking out with them, i'm officially their fan. :P

Each and every song the crowd sing along, especially World Behind My Wall, everybody was like Woah woahhh! The energy is incredible. :)

Although we waited for a long time, i think due to some technical difficulties. It was raining constantly. But we waited and waited and oh boy, it's worth it.

The most anticipated artist of this whole event is Katy Perry, hands down. It took a long time for them to get ready, and the crowd was going a bit restless as all of us were standing for a long period of hours! My feet aches, Kris' back ache. So does some random guy we met called Faiz. Quite cute lah. Wearing baby blue tee (my favourite colour, teehee).

Katy Perry is gorgeous, full of energy with cupcakes and gingerbreads! She wore the most cutest outfit i've ever seen! Although it's just a ballerina kinda thing, but on her she is ADORABLE and HOT! Okay, one confession. I USED to think that she can't REALLY sing. Boy, was i WRONG. She indeed CAN sing! I swear! She is good live. She knows how to work it, knows how to make the boys AND girls wild (including yours truly, I screamed my heart out and somehow screamed : "KATY I LOVE YOU!" like some moron.)

She sang all her hits, she introduced two of her new tracks which is Teenage Dream and Peacock (im addicted to that song, i won't lie). She even played an acoustic AND an electric guitar. I was like, damn is there anything this lady CAN'T do?! :D

When she was about to sing I Kissed A Girl, she asked : "I kissed a WHAAAAAAAT?"

The whole crowd went HYSTERICAL. Plus there were two giant gingerbread with candy as boobs, it was so cute! So Katy. ;D

Here's the video for yesterday's Peacock performance.

In the end she sang Hot and Cold! She even climbed the pole thingy at the side of the stage, FUUH! ♥ Then it ended with giant white and black balls rolling around the audience and some fireworks.

Although they promised Wonder Girls will perform again AFTER Katy Perry, people left anyway. Too exhausted, summore didn't get to eat dinner. The show was over at around 12 something am, but hunger didn't really kick in. I was rocking out with Kris and Faiz and his another friend that my hunger seem to magically disappear. :D

I wanted to buy their t-shirt. But i was a bit konked out, i decided to give up as there were people surrounding the stall like crazy. So after hugged Kris goodbye, i walked barefoot from the entrance all the way to the main door of Sunway Pyramid. It was a long walk, and i found out that my feet is bleeding a bit, but i walked anyway, enjoying the scenery. :P

My brother picked me up, i listened to Bunkface and fell asleep. After taking a bath and everything i was like wtf it's almost 4am?! *drops dead on bed*

Now i shall lymph around the house. See yah later. ;D

Signing out!,

Mongie. ♥

my love towards airports, flying and Ireland (again!) ♥

2010-07-22T19:30:00.010+08:00

I love airports.

There, i said it. Geez. :D

Every single time, it's naturally gleeful for me to visit the airport. Whether is me dropping someone off and going overseas, the thought of being able to go to the airport excites me. A lot. Well of course i don't show it like hardcore Twilight fans. They can break your spine, i kid you not.

The last time i went to KLIA was dropping my mom off to have some Qi Gong thing with her gang. So there i stand, with greasy hair, a singlet, a surfing pants. Smiling at aunties and uncles that i seriously do NOT know. All i did was "hey auntie." or "hey uncle."

AND SMILE.

Okay, back to the topic.

So obviously. Now, currently, i'm confessing about having a 'thing' to airports, airplanes and flying. Where i live, i can see airplanes flying from or to KLIA frequently. Every time after dinner, if i'm lucky i get to see airplanes flying across my head way up high. *ecstatic face*

By the way, i live SITTING on airplanes, not FLYING one. For real.

I miss going to Korea. There's where i skied at night with my brother and family-friends. My parents were feeling really cold so they decided to stay in the hotel. I walked up the hill with that skiing shoes (made out of plastic and stuff, literally makes you feel like you're carrying weights) and just WHEEEEE down the hill. Oh, syoknya. :D

And the tour-guide gave me a big hug before we leave and told me she would kidnap me and keep me here. I'm like errr heeeeeheeeeeee? :D

I wanna travel. So bad. Guangzhou, China was okay, i guess. I've been there for quite a number of times as i have to teman my dad for some business stuff. From the hotel, i can walk out and blend in with the Chinese (well i AM Chinese.) and walk to a mall, walk to mini shops, walk to cafes and stuff. It was pretty okay. And it's not what you think how old fashioned everything is. Some shops even sell more fashionable clothes than you've known, you just gotta explore. And Guangzhou people are extremely fashionable, i might add.

Secondly is, I want to go UK! To hear British slang is one of my favourites! (Hence, my posts after posts of Charlieissocoollike!) Imagine going there, starring at people talking. Well one thing is for sure, i do enjoy people watching! It's a bonus! The thought of having a cup of hot green tea latte (fingers crossed that they sell it there!) and just watch people walk by is pure joy. :)

But the ultimate place to go is?

IRELAND!

Yeah i have a thing for Ireland, i kid you not. Whenever i go to bookstores, especially Borders at The Gardens, i would always always and always go to the Travel section and search for two words : "Dublin" and "Ireland"! Then i flipped the pages and see the pubs, the public tour spots, the hotels. Everything seems too good to be true!

Look how peaceful it is?! Makes me wanna jump into the photo and live there! :)

It seems so beautiful, very green. Even though i live in Malaysia, i can't deny about the fact that the trees are going missing one by one. And the fact that i live in KL city while all the greenies and at the other side of the state, just makes me wanna jump into an airplane FAST and just go and stare at hundred year old trees!

OH! I've been to Pahang's Taman Negara and i intend to go back again!

I've been to Pulau Redang and i intend to go back too! :)

So there you have it. My obsession with traveling is as clear as H₂O. The feeling i have is wanting to fly and have an amazing getaway, especially with friends and family and YOU! :)

Before i sign out, i have something else to share, as always!

Enjoy!

Mongie, signing off! ♥

Bon Odori 2010! ♥

2010-07-16T22:30:00.012+08:00

Dot dot dot.

Where is my English - Chinese button? Where the hell is it?! D:

Now i can't type Chineseee. NO!

Wait a minute. *BING!*

Google translate to the rescue. Google oh Google, I'm forever thankful.

So after i came back from school, i joined my 二姐 and her family for dinner in Zenmai, The Gardens. I personally like Zenmai! Especially with that cup of Green Tea Latte. I'm like fuuuuaahhhhhh ecstatic + syokness + melting. There's just something about green tea that makes me go gaga.

I still remember that day when we were in Aziz's car. Kris was like : "hey whats that? Can i try? :D "

Me : "It's green tea ice cream. Yeah sure!"

Kris : " *mum mum* EEEEEEEEEEEEEE. "

Till today i still remember her expression. PRICELESS. I will remind you this when we're 30. :P

My friends tend to cringe by the mentioning of 'green tea'. True, it is bitter. But green tea tastes magical (yes i used the word magical, im THAT big of a fanatic!). It's bitter, plus the milk it's rich and creamy and little sweet. The very different type of texture in my tongue just makes me go voomvoomva!

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Bought a few more magazines again. *facepalms myself*

I've been buying magazines like KLue and Fluxed. Just now i bought Juice, Junk and a magazine that i've never even consider buying until NOW - Drummer.

Although it's a bit costly, it DOES contain informations and all the things about drums that i just fell in love with. I made a promise to myself, i need to save more money in order to keep this up! It's worth it. :)

I was searching for Junk magazine like CRAZY in Borders, The Gardens! I just can't find it in their usual spot. I got so frustrated and i even thought that they shut down the magazine or something! Alas, it's being covered by ANOTHER magazine. My initial expression : -.- *shove away the zoh deng magazine* *GRINS AT JUNK MAGAZINE*

OH! and my 二姐 got this really cool phone that I've been eye-ing for a long time!

Samsung Corby Cool!

I've been eye-ing on it since forever. There's just something about this phone that makes me go 'me likeyyyy.'

Imma go sleep and get ready for the carnival and BON ODORI, BABY!

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BON ODORI, MATHAFAKA!

...sorry. too excited. let's start from the beginning, shall we? :D

So went to the R.E.A.L. Carnival with Kris. Hang around there and all that jazz. We heard there were vuvuzelas and we plan to buy one, but we were distracted by the sand art and one particular cute ang moh. We completely forgotten about it. :|

Drop off a Surian and Kris' brother to tuition and just hang out in her house. Chillax a bit, then off we go to Bon Odori! We parked the car at quite a distance, then we walked there. Seen so many leng luis walking around with kimonos. *LOOK AT THEM WITH ENVY EYES* :(

All I have to say was - it was so freaking awesome that i WILL go back next year! I enjoyed it so much, especially with my friends and all. Too bad i wasn't carrying my camera while we were dancing with our fan in the field. But i did enjoyed the event very much, and WHAT A WORKOUT! :P

I shall let some of the photos do the talking. :D

Go to my Facebook album to check out MORE! Click the link below! :)

http://www.facebook.com/?ref=logo#!/album.php?aid=2041482&id=1475149623&ref=mf

See yah. :3

Mongie. ♥

and oh. when i was about to post my blog link on Facebook. Guess what i just saw?

Twilight fever much? -...-

Fusball! :D ♥

2010-07-09T22:08:00.008+08:00

Football! WOOOOO!

...*snores*

That pretty much summaries Saturday night until Sunday morning. :D

I would like to thank Izzie for letting us crashing into her house. :P

I was supposed to reach her house by 7 something pm. But my dad was so afraid that i might skip meals (weird, but true) thus my parents and I went to Jusco Cheras Selatan. Aziz the Monkey called me and ask me where am I. I was choosing snacks and laughing on the phone while people stare. I mean come on, it is THAT rare to see people talking on the phone while buying snacks?

LOL as he passed by Jusco in his car he's like : "Woooooo im passing by Juscoooo. Wooooo i can see you! :D"

Dinner + buying snacks + parents very distinctive choice of fruits to buy, i ended up reaching Izzie's house at 9 something.

I went in, Kris : "AAAAAALOOOOOOO! :D"

I went stun for awhile. I went wtf i thought you say you don't want to come! :D

But she didn't stay long. :/

So technically we just chilled and eat and talk and laugh and just being bunch of monkeys. And i don't know who's smart idea is it to watch the Thai horror movie Coming Soon. I'm like curled between pillow and Aziz telling me his butt is numb. And Phua kept on squishing Aziz's feet whenever there's something scary coming up. xD

Germany won, yay. :P

You should have seen Izzie and Yunzeh's Germany jersey, it is awesome! :O

So i went up and sleep on the floor with Lynzeh and the girls while guys sleep downstairs. It was so cold that i can't really sleep. :O Although it was like 4 something am near to 5am?

So around 6 something when my alarm clock rang, i spring up and look around me. I wanted to wake Yunzie but i know she won't wake up. xD So i nudged Lynzeh and Izzie instead. Both also blur blur mau tidur, so i went down.

There's where the weird part comes in.

When i walk down the guys are already awake, i'm like what the heck, so early? I asked them why la wake up so early, then they say they can't sleep and gave out sleeping. For some reasons, i THOUGHT they asked me i finished Chemistry or not. I'm like half asleep half awake half mentally drunk and i answered with pride : "I FINISHED CHEMISTRY! :D"

Logaa jokingly thought i was drunk lol. And kesian Shane, he's like scared. xD

I don't know why. I really don't remember what i said until around 7am, i'm starting to become more alert and actually awake.

All i remember is I try to pull Logaa's bag away while he escape. I ended up chasing him in the living room by walking. He's like freaked out and said go awayyyy. xD And i remembered i laughed. A lot.

It's about to start! 2 something am.

The junk. :D

After everybody is awake and we watch a little bit of telly, went out coffee diam and have some breakfast. Then we invited ourselves into Daniel's house. Kesian lah, he didn't know that we're coming and we just barged in. The reason we went there in the 1st place is - Izzie has piano lessons and we have no place to crash to. xD

For the first time i held a kitten. :3

All the time i thought they would struggle and all the horror things i can think of, but Emer just gave me the kitten and i just put it on my lap. So cuddlyyy. ♥ I scratched her head and body, she was so cute! I might bring home a kitten after SPM. :)

After Izzie is done with her piano lessons, we walk back to her house and just chill.

I have to go back before 1pm because i have drum class. After taking a shower and all that i just went there. Practiced Crescent City Voodoo and lepak and talk with Erik for a long period. He recommended Pearl (Pearl in black looks pretty awesome!) or Tama drums with Zildjian cymbals (a very good combination, plus when buying Tama drums they don't throw in the cymbals but only the cymbal stands.)

I need to get one, helllooooo. ASAP! I know i'm getting better. I NEED to be better. The urge of wanting to be good at drums is so strong! Plus i think i picked up an obsession on pretty drumsticks. I saw a baby blue one with while strips. The first thing that pops in my head is ARGENTINAAAAA. *cheers*

I saw a dark green one which is pretty cool. Both from Yamaha. RM48. But it writes there Fibre drumsticks. 1st thing in my head was : " dot dot dot. what the heck is fibre drumsticks? It doesn't look fibre-ish. It looks more plastic + rubber-ish. "

I need to do my research.

Tomorrow 1.30am is THE WORLD CUP FINALS! *vuvuzela, please!*

Netherlands VS. Spain.

Hells yeah. :D

One more thing to share!

Heck yeah Arthur Kam's AWESOME. Summore he's Malaysian, so proud la. *shed a drum-shaped tear*

Yeah i don't know how that looks like either. But seriously! He kicks ass! :3

Mongie. ♥

run loser run. ♥

2010-07-06T21:37:00.005+08:00

Currently listening to : Loser - Beck ♥

My cousin got married last week! Although I wasn't there to witness as I decided not to skip school on Monday and today, my mommy was back like an hour ago and showed me photos. His grin was so cute! And the bride Jennifer is as pretty as a flower. :3

"I'm a loser, baby. So why don't you kill me?" - Beck. :D

I freaking love that song.

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I scared the shit out of Nisha today. Hormonal. Again. You're probably wondering, that you can actually predict my life. It's either stressed out about exams, friends or being hormonal. Life of a teenager in Malaysia. Basic typical shit.

7 hours in school.

2-3 hours on the internet (sometimes more).

1 hour for baths and change in clothes.

7-8 hours of sleep.

1 hour for transport.

2 hours for meal.

21 hours gone.

WTF?

See anything wrong with my timetable?

Number 1) Daily internet usage is about 2-3 hours. Seriously. It's time to cut down. But usually when i say i want to cut down for like thousands of times, i DIDN'T go it anyhow. I kinda rely on my internet a lot to communicate with friends and Google stuff, such as the octopus prediction, Kaiser Chiefs and Lasik eye surgery images.

But i honestly recommend watching Lasik eye surgery on Youtube. Awesomeness. :D

I'll put the video here, just in case you ARE curious.

Probably after you watch it you're like : "Ewwww Mongie why do you put something like THAT? Ewwwww. D: "

Don't worry! Come on, it's a human eye. We all have it. It's a surgery to improve eyesight!

Or maybe it's just me being oddly curious. :D

From what i have researched, depending on the answers that they give - NO Lasik eye surgery DOESN'T hurt, but there is a level of discomfort.

Discomfort as in, it's really intense, because everything is happen to close to your eye and as you can see from the video, you can't blink as they put the clamp on your eye, plus you can't really see what are they doing. Just lay down, relax, lay still and let them do their job. :)

Number 2) There is no study time. At all. Like i said, i'm doom. I need to change. If not, my SPM memang die 99. :O

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I'm sick.

NOOO.

The fact that i'm sick is fine, but i can get all hot and cold, hot Milo-cravings, must wear sweater and all that.

Speaking of Milo, i have a huge obsession with Milo since i was a kid.

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By the way! PRACTICE MAKES PERFECT! :D

Need prove? Watch this.

NIGHT! :3

Mongie ♥

Fight the fight! - Ape Fights ♥

2010-07-05T19:11:00.005+08:00

Currently listening to : Sailed On - Landon Pigg

The fact that I've been very hormonal these days actually freaks me out even more than before. Previously the actual steady fact about teenage girls laughing now and flipping out and cry next is normal. But I think I just reached a whole new level of hormonal-imbalance-ness.

Can you hear the clock? You can't? Pick up your watch now. Listen to it. Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock. It has such beautiful note, isn't it? I don't know about you, but i sure do find it mysterious and charming. The 5 ticks and another 5 tocks is already an indication - you have just listen to the melody of time running pass you.

Time can't be seen. Time can't be heard. Time can only be applied with the use of sunrise and sundown, and of course your watch.

Tick tock, my friends. Have you done things that you should have done yet?

How simple to see, that in 24 hours, major things to do are walking, bathing, eating, breathing, talking, working, thinking and so much more. I call these 'the jobs of our 24 hours'.

But in a lifetime, all these 24 hours 'jobs' turn things into something we held on in life. Something that leaves a mark, a stain. Something that will become a cycle or a pattern of our life. For example, we talk. We think. In general we be ourselves, we socialize. We can say that, it jumbles up into relationships and friendships in life.

We walk and we eat. In a lifetime that jumbles up into what we are, in the looks of our body shape. We walk less, we eat more? Or we walk more, we eat less? THAT affects body shape, doesn't it?

There are things we need to do forever to keep living. But there are things to do JUST for that moment. I remember about the oral test I have to do with my classmates. English and Bahasa Malaysia oral test, to be exact.

I have to remember the lines and dialogue and that jazz. We kept thinking that this is just bullcrap to do. We kept pushing it away. For the fact that it just takes 5 to 10 minutes to get all the things we remember out to our mouths, and get our marks. That's it. Then it is behind us.

It is easy.

Now, the examinations. I am sitting for my SPM this year.

I have 5 months left. WE have 5 months left.

The moral here is, it's just a stepping stone in our education. This is not a daily routine. This is just something that we HAVE to do, in order to get a better education in the future. This is just something we really, really have to do.

Remember : after this is over, you are a free man.

Then it's a cycle. You gotta start over again in college and push it.

SO FIGHT THE FIGHT, DAMMIT. :D

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I open up my journal a few days ago. There's so many miniature problems, so many feelings, but so tiny incidents. D:

I refuse to believe that my 2007-2009 life is THAT event-less. I refuse to believe that I've put so much unnecessary feelings and emotions into such thin crust problems. I refuse to believe that i forgot to mention the details of my everyday highlights.

The fact that I never wrote any detailed stuff in it makes me angry, at the truth about how lazy and mind-changing i am. Is it that hard to write down the details?

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The hormones are kicking me quite hard in the head, for real. Hence the 'time and tide waits for no man!' and the 'upset over my journals' post. This is getting weird and mental~

Today is my baby Nisha's birthday! :D ♥

Yeah I squished her so hard today in school, it's worth it. xD

So i will see you guys in a few days?

Mongie. ♥

Egoraptor + asdfmovie FTW! ♥

2010-07-02T13:12:00.009+08:00

Currently listening to : Rusty Halo - The Script.

So basically is this. I can't drive YET because my birthday is on the 18th of August. I just posted my own birthday on my own blog, how twisted is that for a change? I was sleeping very soundly and i was dreaming about something. (yeaaaa clearly i enjoy the something and very clearly that the yeaaaa is some sort of hint that this dream is something good to me.)

Probably i'm going mental. Or better yet i am already mental. :D

My phone started ringing. I thought it was my alarm but i have no memory of setting ANY alarm at all, due to last night's sudden wanting of writing journal + listening to my Jazz CD till wee hours of the morning. It may seem idiotic, but idiots do know what they enjoy and relax instead of posting emo posts on Facebook. Annoying ke tahap maksima.

Okay so. I open my kinky eyes and i see Audery's house phone number. She invited me to go watch football at the Sungai Long mamak.

Now here's the thing.

Clearly i never knew the joy of watching football until a week ago. Seriously. I was one of those people who screams GOALLLL at the top of their voices even though the neighbourhood were basically packed. I honestly can't wait for the next 4 years, so i can scream and celebrate or moan and cry with my friends while watching the world cup.

I really, really wanted to go. The thing is, I can't drive YET. If i already had my licence by now I would have screamed at Audery saying " YESSSSSSSS! :D " .

I'm in Ampang while most of my classmates are in Sungai Long. :/

I pray my brother can do me a favour then. :3

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The Script kicks ass, hello?

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Turns out i can't make it to mamak. :(

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Currently i own two of Kaiser Chiefs latest CD, which is Off With Their Heads (2008) and Yours Truly, Angry Mob (2007). As a fan, i honestly think that is not enough for two reasons!

One. I STILL can't get hold on their oldest album, which is Employment (2005). I mean seriously, most of the good tracks are in it like Everyday I Love You Less and Less, Na Na Na Na Naa (yes, don't be deceived by the name, it is heck of a kick ass song, obviously), Modern Way and so on.

How can i NOT want to get this album?!

I feel like such a dork, for some reason.

TWO. I've never been to their concerts. Ever. Yes i live in Malaysia which is in Asia. Before i knew the awesomeness that is in Kaiser Chiefs, they already performed in Singapore on April. I was like oh my GOD! They did?! And i just realized that the event and details and all that jazz was in one of my favourite magazine Junk.

I was thinking to myself, how on earth did i miss that?!

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Recently Hafid showed me a video. I'm loving it to DEATH! It reminds me of Egoraptor (the one that made animation 'Awesome' videos, which is parodies of games, mainly on Newgrounds. But also available in Youtube.)

But they are British. *hearts!*

This is my favourite!

And if you are blur about what i'm talking about, the Egoraptor, here's one of my favourites from him too. Check it out! :D

Yes, i laughed till i cried. xD

So i went to The Gardens and i bought a sling bag from Elle (i dont own a sling bag, which is very sad!) and my mom bought herself a chic bag too!

Mom already took hers away, which is why i've lost my chance of taking a photo of it (NOO!) but i manage to take mine!

Imma drink this all night. xD

Good night! :)

Mongie. ♥

not-Tedious-at all Thursday. ♥

2010-06-24T19:05:00.007+08:00

Mission to NOT touch the PC and phone during weekdays - EPIC FAIL.

Being back in school after the two week holidays is definitely changing my perspective and views towards waking up early in the morning to school.

Even in school I'm laughing MORE than usual. I'm sorry to Senior 5 Hope for the loud laugh of mine. Kesian you guys. :P

Today EVERYTHING seems to tick off my funny bones. Since Kris wasn't here and Lyn was moving to Ghia's place and Eliza is alone, so I be a good person lah kan? Go and teman her with Nishi. :P

Mr Yu was talking about the graph, then he said : "You guys ah, always draw those funny funny graph."

It may seem like a meaningless sentence, but i was at the back laughing my head off, with Eliza and Nishi looking at me weirdly.

It occur a few times, i don't really remember when.

My 1st ever drumsticks. Yeah i don't use them anymore lol. And please ignore my PJ kitteh cat pants.

And i tend to conteng my drumsticks with pen.

I never knew my eyes are like that, i have to WIDEN it lol.

Say hello to my Altec Lansing. :3

See yah!

Mongie. ♥

Peanut butter Saturday. ♥

2010-06-18T23:28:00.012+08:00

Watched The A-Team yesterday!

It was freaking awesome. I've never been to the movie theater and remembering watching such an epic movie. Face is unbelievably hot, i might add. :P

So went out with my buddies Tim and Leong. Walking around KL from 11am - 9pm! Mostly shopping! :D

Bought some earrings ( i feel that my ears are naked! ) and Kaiser Chiefs latest album Off With Their Heads. Happiness is in the air, people. :D

Not our comment, by the way, it's others. xD

Starting Monday i can't get online as frequently as i do now, can't text or call as much either. All entertainment stuff are only allowed on weekends, so. Bummer. :|.. Meaning I won't be updating as frequently as i do now either. I can practically say, that i'm an internet junkie.

I found my brother's old guitar a week ago, i think? Erik did encourage me to pick up guitar. Plus he wants me test my singing (for God knows WHAT reason. i'm practically tone-deaf!) tomorrow, pray he doesn't die of laughter. Choi choi pui pui!

It definitely needs some repair because the tuner is broken thus it sounds a bit cacat, plus even the strings are rusted! D:

But honestly i can't see myself playing a guitar. My interest in guitar are not as deep as in drums, so i think i'm going to pick up guitar just for fun or after my SPM. :P

This is temporary my guitar pick, my dad's old SIM card. Found it when i was vacuuming the living room. xD.. I can't really go buy one as I'm just fooling around and I know NUTS about playing a guitar. Imma ask my good friend Russell to teach me how after form 5 war. :D

K la, call me perasan, but i actually like this photo. Even though I'm technically not a guitarist but a drummer. xD

Although I was happy that Erik decided to keep me as his permanent student (who won't be happy?) , there's still insecurities. I kinda recalled that once I mastered drums (which i guess will take a few years? But he didn't tell me that la, it's just me guessing, lol.), he would want me to play in live shows. Maybe like a promotion show kinda things. Last week we chit chat as usual, he asked me to maybe I should start jamming with my friends who can sing (eg. Kristal DUH) and guitarist (eg. My 'Shane & Britt' bestie Vince LOL and Russell).

I admitted to him straight : "I'm not ready."

Of course i'm not ready! From the beginning till now, I learned drums for only 7 months. I still remember during the 5th month, Erik already wanted me to go for the exams. I want to ace it, (well technically i don't think there's an ace but only a pass, I THINK?) so i decided to take AFTER my SPM.

My, my, my. Many things to do after SPM eh?

BUT everything has to stop too after 4 months. Because i'm going further for studies. Especially in medical field, i'm not suppose to have a life, kan? :P

Sigh. See you guys. :)

Mongie. ♥

OH GLORIOUS FOOD! :D ♥

2010-06-15T19:57:00.007+08:00

I'm driving. The sunlight hits the windscreen and you can feel the warmth. It was so comforting! After a blur, i'm laying down on a beautiful clean field. It was so rare because i used to prefer the rain rather than sun. But this time, i just let the sunlight hit on my face while i'm looking at the most beautiful sky I've ever seen. Clouds everywhere in random shape and sizes. Nothing beats this, i thought.

*knocks on the door*

"Mun, get up, let's have some breakfast!"

There is where everything wonderful hits a snag.

It was a dream!

It was such a beautiful dream! I have to twist around and try to sleep back to the same dream but i can't. My phone was already ringing early in the morning. The freaking birds were chirping so much that there might be a chance for me to throw a shoe at them.

But don't tell SPCA - shh. ;)

So had a semi-lunch with mom, run some errands, did some work.

A couple of minutes ago i found this website called Six Billion Secrets. Basically it's something like FML, but it's all true and heart-breaking secrets from people all around the world. Google it, if you want to visit the website, it's pretty neat.

Okay I've got to admit, i DID cry a bit while reading it. Yes I'm a hormonal teenager, and I can't do anything about it. :P

It is, at that moment i know that i am not alone. Because many of the secrets involving self-esteem and hating ourselves, seeing ourselves as the fattest people on the planet - is exactly what i feel. It's very very tiring. VERY.

To get up every single day and bring ourself down. To tell yourself you are not beautiful. To say nobody in this planet will like or love us. To believe the things that what our best friends said to us like : "You're not fat!" or "You're beautiful, God damn it!" is all just something a best friend should say.

You. Are. Wrong.

I can say this to you, honest to blog, that I've never comment or tell a person they are ugly and fat. The reason? It's because they are NOT! We are humans, we are never satisfy with ourselves. If we're 60kg, we want less. When we're 50 kg, we want an even lower weight. THUS! You are starving yourself to DEATH!

I never believe in starving.

Our body needs food to function. If people tell me to avoid food to stay thin? Imma punch them in the face and say HELL NO to giving up glorious food! *holds up the shiny pizza* :D

We. As humans. We are different. We come with different shape and sizes. To be healthy, exercise and food is the main key, and let's not forgetting laughter too.

The word 'fat' to me, is not used to refer to people. Honestly, i have never seen anything that made me automatically say "omg fat!' unless it's the yellow substance when i'm eating chicken meat.

Specially to the people who is like me, USED to think that we're fat and nobody will ever like us.

Dude and dudettes, seriously - STOP IT. NOW it occurs to me how annoying and how UNTRUE the statement is, 'nobody will like me because i'm fat'. I have SO MANY gorgeous girlfriends who still think that they are fat and they are single because there's something wrong with them, which includes them thinking they are FAT!

YOU GUYS ARE NOT FAT! And there's definitely nothing WRONG with you!

Honest to God? NOBODY IS FAT! To me, there's nothing AND NO ONE called FAT unless it's the biology name for the yellow substance in our and other creature's body!

So let's get over it! Live our live already! MOVE! Get out of the house! Join a class! Meet new people! Mingle around! Be yourself! Have a drink! Have some fun! Get under the sun! Be active!

Which is why, starting today, June 15 of the year 2010, I, Mong Kar Mun swear to never call myself fat and to be comfortable and happy with just the way i am. Yes i'm chubby - to hell with it then! Wear a bigger size of clothes and ;) I'll be just fine.

Sincerely,

Mongie. ♥

Note : To bloggers who would like to participate in Operation Beautiful too, do pay a visit to Operation Beautiful website, link below! And i hope bloggers will spread the love! :D

http://operationbeautiful.com/

a bit of understand is needed, thank you.

2010-06-13T16:20:00.004+08:00

Every time i skipped lunch, my parents would always think that i'm skipping meals to be thin. And it's beginning to tick me off a little.

The reason i skipped meals sometimes doesn't mean that i don't prefer to eat. It's actually very simple! - I'm just NOT that hungry! Yes, i admit, i would love to be thin. But it doesn't mean that I don't know the actual and healthy path towards a healthier lifestyle and body!

GEEZ.

Maybe they expect me to start vomiting and go counselling and all that STUFF that parents dream while handling problematic kids.

I'm not a baby. When i'm hungry, i WILL eat. When i'm not, i won't. That's it. It's that simple, don't they ever get it?

SECOND ONE.

As you all know, it's the holidays now. And all i wanted to do is to chillax, go out a few times with my friends to meet up a bit and stuff, just being a slack-y teenager, i suppose. It's the HOLIDAYS! I mean, holidays HAS it's own purpose, ain't it?

BUT OH NO~

Ever since that confession of wanting to join MBBS, all my parents can tell me is how short the time is, how i'm not spending my time to the fullest, how i'm not going to find a good job in the future if i choose something else, how and how and how and MORE hows.

I. Hate. Getting. Tied.

Other people may be able to cope this. I mean, the whole parents want me to do this, they give me all the things and i just go for it.

I just can't. I can't do it. I just HATED getting tied.

I like finding my own materials, informations. I prefer myself knowing what is what and what my goals and targets are, instead of constant feeding of EVERYTHING to me. I absolutely loath that.

I honestly wanted to plea, PLEASE just let me have my time enjoying my holidays. I just need to breathe for awhile. In this week. It's like they don't allow me to. I KNOW in MBBS everything is very exam-orientated! I know that! Don't you think i know that? Just let me do my own thing and stop guiding and tying me!

Example, if they keep on stressing on about cutting all of my time using the computer and all that, i will be freaking pissed. IF they just let me loose, i will always realize the pros and cons in a situation and i will set rules to myself, saying :

"Okay, you already went out and have your fun with friends during the holidays. It's enough isn't it? And all holiday long you've already have spend lots of time in the computer, isn't it? Now. Be discipline. Study smart now and you can spend ALL that time after SPM, isn't that great? Work hard 1st, then enjoy later! "

BUT OH NO~

They just don't get it. And you may say 'why don't you just talk to them? :D '

I would have to probably, punch you.

Do you think i would have this problem now if the simple solution is to TALK to them? I would have done it earlier ain't it?

Suffocating here, hello? Help me?

It's like i'm a bug, they love me so much that their hands are so tight, it's suffocating me!

If i tell them about this, all they can say is that this is just an excuse. Saying that letting me loose will only cause myself even more trouble and wanted to go out and have fun even more and probably ALL the alibis you can think of. And their famous sentence is : "Mun, i know you can do it, you just don't want to it."

HELL YEAH if you keep suffocating me like THIS! D:

If only talking to them can make them understand. Now i just feel like shouting WATAFAK and pull all my hair out and be insane. I can't STAND ties and tight rules and regulations and strictness. I can't. I will go bizzerk.

Mom. Dad. I love you people.

But seriously.

Stop it. :(

Get out of the house! ♥

2010-06-10T12:23:00.004+08:00

Currently listening to : Heat Dies Down - Kaiser Chiefs

Although it was afternoon, and i was still wearing my Teddy PJs so i can assume that it is still morning time. So there i went, drinking my yogurt drink, scratching my head, walking like a duck, wore my glasses, and just sit in front of the computer. And occasionally turning to my left and watch a little bit of TV.

My Kaiser Chiefs CD has been running on a loop. I've been listening it when i'm on the road, when i'm at home. Even in my head.

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Okay i'm not here just to tell you how my holidays goes. My holidays have been okay actually, I wound't have use the word 'bored to death', as it is simply impossible. If you did, congratulations. It proves two things, you are now a ghost using a computer to visit my blog and you are the first person to die of boredom in this world! :)

I'm actually crushed. OVERWHELMED.

Ever since I told my mother i have a slight chance joining MBBS, and somehow my dad know and i wasn't surprise about it, i was overwhelmed. But i still remember a few days ago i went to an education fair (NAPEI, i think) and i went to visit MAHSA too. I saw the picture of the cadaver while he was explaining. I ask lots of details and he was helpful. In the end, i look at him and i said : "So, the cadaver thing is during pre-clinical or the second phase?"

He stare at me with a straight emotionless face as if he just got a Botox!

And no, i don't mean that Simon has Botox, just the photo says it all. :P

In the end he asked me with a laugh : " Wow, you really are interested aren't you? xD "

I honestly don't know how to answer him, clearly i don't want to freak him out by saying : "Why, yes, i Googled the cadaver process and i am ready, YES SIR!" He would probably blacklist me for prevention of psychos entering medical fields.

AND I FINALLY FOUND SOMETHING THAT CAN SEND ME TO IRELAND! :D

I shall consider. x3 *yoga pose*

But today dad said something that trigger my teenage female hormones : "Have you study today? :D "

Yes, i add a smiley face because he IS smiling when he ask me that. It's not those angry daddy roar roar kinda question, it was just a simple 'have you study' question.

I just went up to my room and be those emo people. But not emo enough to post their emo-ness on Facebook every freaking seconds. Oh speaking of that, doesn't it annoy you? I mean come on, if you want to be emo, go HOME and emo good God! Of all places, you choose the place where all your friends and family are available to see what you are emo-ing about.

It's like taking up a microphone and shouting : "To all my friends and family! Yes, i am emo as shit! Oh yes, i'm emo-ing about a boy / family / relations / exams! Right here people, emo is my MIDDLE NAME!"

No offence to those people who DO, but it has to be done.

Back to me, okay i have to admit something here. It's the holidays. I just want to enjoy my holidays by reading a book, listening to music, sit till i rot or grow mushrooms on my head, have some time with friends. NOT sitting there and study YET! NOT YET!

And i think i have a problem focusing. Because i really do tried to focus and study, instead i was distracted. Multiple times. Plus with my PMS time is around, i just BOOMED! It's like i'm telling my body : "HEY! LISTEN TO ME! I WANT TO STUDY HERE! STOP DISTRACTING ME!"

The mind goes : "Kar Mun, i think you just grow a pimple there, go check it out with the compact mirror, will you?"

And there i go, sitting there with my compact mirror, analyzing my pimples!

I was so disappointed at my level of focus! GOOD GOD this is frustrating! >:(

After a disappointment-tuning nap, I sort of made myself an invisible list at the back of my head. Never make my mom worry about the stress i'm having, because today i can see that my mom KNOWS that i've been stressing about the choice of MBBS. Oddly, somehow, mothers just knew! And the most weirdest thing is? Us as daughters knew what they were worried about! :)

Second, study smart. Heck, even the guy in MAHSA told me to study smart. He must have seen thousands of crazy 'study hard' people who went NUTS for this. :D

Ah yes, the joy of holiday epiphanies. :)

Now all i want is to gather people around, sit down somewhere (i don't care where), have a drink, and just TALK. As for shopping, i shall be a good friend and give others opinions instead of BUY BUY BUY! I mean i already have enough clothes, which most of them from my mom's approval. Yes, moms have style, i kid you not. I honestly love my mom's wardrobe more than mine. =X

Well i shall stop here, enjoy your holidays people! GET OUT OF THE HOUSE!

Before you become one with your house. :P

Mongie. ♥

Chilly Wednesday White. ♥

2010-06-08T15:02:00.004+08:00

Currently listening to : Everyday I Love You Less and Less

Is it just me, or the news about Chace Crawford arrested isn't that much of a shocker despite he's pretty much a clean Hollywood star? (Not THAT clean, apparently.)

I mean yeah, sure, he's Chace Crawford. He's hot, he's got gorgeous eyes and that amazing stubble of his. But strangely the arrest doesn't make me go : "OH CHACE, WHY?!"

Instead it just makes me go : "Just another Hollywood star gone wild. :) "

Another news - yet again, Miley Cyrus has gone wild (i'm honestly not surprise) (oh, it includes her in a lingerie, wtf?) while performing at the Rock in Rio music festival in Madrid. BEFORE this it was the faux girl-on-girl kissing during her performance on Britain's Got Talent.

I. am. absolutely. NOT. shocked.

I mean seriously, why the rush growing up? Geez.

WHY am i talking about this? Man, i should have a rule that says NO talking about trashy celebrities. :)

I was browsing on Facebook the other day, and i noticed that my cousin sister FINALLY posted her 4th child's photos! I must say, i feel like a mad aunt for 'liking' almost every photo. Now i feel how other people who frequently does that feel - it is UNSTOPPABLE!

And i shall share a few photos. :3

Apparently he likes to wink. :P

DAWWW look at that goofy smile. :3

I shall 'ninja' you while you are asleep!

DAWWWW.

Biting my brother-in-law's nose. O__O!

DOUBLE DAWWW!

I only viewed like half of the album in Kun's house that day, probably they are curious on what am i "AWWWW YYYYYIIIIII WOOOOOOOO AWWWWW CCUUTTEEEEEE " screams about. :P

Urgh apparently during the holidays i'm don't have any drum classes at all. HOW BORING! And i sort of left my drumsticks with Kun. ._.

I miss my smexy Dennies! Yeah i have to name both of them Denny because i can't really tell which is which when i name them different. :P

Yes, i named my drumsticks. As weird as it may sounds, but yeah it happened. Nasi sudah jadi bubur. There are people who named their guitar too, but it just doesn't seem as weird as naming your DRUMSTICKS.

Mongie. ♥

Tuesday Yellow. ♥

2010-06-07T22:31:00.005+08:00

Shan was telling me that the book PS I Love You is better than the movie version. So today i went to Leisure Mall and get it. AND i sort of went out of control and got myself a second book Message in a Bottle from Nicholas Sparks. :P

I was reading it until Chapter 5 (i think) where Gerry left a letter to Holly.

it was ONLY chapter 5. (do you have any idea how many more chapters to go?) and i'm already crying! It was THAT sad. Okay i haven't read the whole book so i can actually give you a full scale of the sadness that book contains.

And because I watched the movie 1st, i always pictured scenes with the adorable Hilary Swank and the muscular Gerald Butler. :P

I'm feeling the mixture feeling of dreadful and joy at the same time when i realize i have extra class for tomorrow. We will be learning Biology chapter 4 at exact 8.30am. I still remember while my previous Sejarah teacher and a few of my senior 3 friends were talking about science chapter 4, which is the reproduction system. They noticed how focus and quiet the class is compare to others, and they tend to ask lots and lots of questions! It kinda gave myself a question mark there -

Were we like that in senior 3 and lower? xD

However, i still remember when i was in senior 1. Where our class was having a debate about some science subject, i completely forgot. Ka Siong suddenly argued about the reproductive system comparing to the title (which has NO connection at all!) and it made us cracked up for so long!

In the end, Mr Wong gave a bit of advice to us :

" Never drag any non-related topic please - especially reproductive system. :D "

AND I JUST REALIZE I WENT OUT OF TOPIC!

SPLENDID!

Here i shall wave my flabby arms and bid you farewell, good night and remember dear friends,

Tomorrow is a Tuesday.

Yes.

Tuesday.

UH-HUH.

Yeah.

Mongie. ♥

why hello, Dean Martin! :) ♥

2010-06-06T00:40:00.010+08:00

Currently listening to : Volare - Dean Martin.

It's originally Italian. But once i listen to it, i fell in love with it. It is romantic as heck, but without the cheesiness!

Yes, i will admit now - it will always be my favourite song, forever and always. :]

Why hello there dear readers.

On Friday was Sekolah Seri Suria's Teachers' Day celebration.

I gotta say, it was AWESOME.

The most memorable moments has got to be when Mr Ganesh gathered the semangat of the teachers and start making rules on their own and START RUNNING DOWN to get the treasure during the second game.

Mr Darminder captured THE TREASURE! :D

LOL cutest people i've ever seen.

I went LOLLLLLL. xD

As we all can see, cheating is in the hands of everybody. We can see that when teachers play the 1st game. I honestly have no wtf-ness or anger about it - who does? I mean come on, the main objective is that they have fun. If they had fun, so be it, correct? :D

Third game - yeah i dont need to say much, it was so obvious that they had fun splashing water and being splashed by water. :P

After eating, we all went to see the performances. By the end of that, teachers are encourage to go up the stage and dance. I mean, THIS is what i'm talking about. This is the year of 2010, still expecting good old teachers' day celebration? Get real! :D

I gotta say, i indeed enjoy this year's show. Very very much.

My favourite performance! :D

Cutest performance! With Kah Yeen shaking his ass lol.

To view more, go to my Facebook photo album, TQ! :)

Well of course after that we gotta clean up lol.

Then it's sleepover at Kun's. I can't sleep at 3 - 4am. So i played my games on my phone till i doze off lol.

After getting ready, went to MidValley. Blablabla. Bought magazines and CDs.

Yeah that pretty much sums up my day.

To see the photos, click the link below. And by the way most of the photos are Teachers Day, just a brief warning. :D

http://www.facebook.com/?ref=logo#!/album.php?aid=2037427&id=1475149623

So probably very clear on a Sunday morning, the plan i mean. I shall stay home and be a sloth. Then go and play drums. Come back, and be a sloth again. Well pretty much the whole 2 weeks will like this. Seriously.

I still remember the list that i made a few weeks back at 3 in the morning.

Two of them are done, which is buying gifts for my darlings Lynzeh and Hafid, another is going out with my friends and i finally went out yesterday!

Reminds me of Friday - Aziz's weird poses when he plays badminton lol.

And Derrick (I GOT IT RIGHT! :D) almost hit Kun in the nuts with the shuttlecock LMAO.

But one of the list i wanted to do very much right now is - going out solo. But not shopping malls. It's more of wanting to go to an empty field, waterfall in Hulu Langat, park - any place that can take me away.

Today early in the morning, i woke up with puffy eyes and i can barely see. ( Yes, Kristal and Russell. *COUGH COUGH!* :P ) And my mom kept forcing me to EAT. For the love of Buddha - im NOT hungry. Why does she always force me to eat? I'm fat enough already, geez. I'm just not hungry. :/

i just want to be thin.

As far as I have been through, there's no such thing as guys loving for who you are anymore.

Since I said this sentence : "Yeah probably I wanna go for Bachelor of Surgery after my A-levels and 4 years in Medical School. I have to ask the right people to know what's up."

I said this very casually. BUT my dear mother, as you can see clearly the glee from her face, immediately shower me with information and cut-outs of Medical School presentation and exhibitions. It was a bit overwhelming, but at the same time I'm grateful too.

It's just that. Bachelor of Surgery isn't exactly ABC. This is the anatomy of the human body we're talking about here. There are so much to learn, so much you can apply. I just don't know whether i can handle it. I mean, i can barely pass Chemistry.

Let's say when i go for A-levels, i'm 18. Spending my time in Medical School, then to Bachelor of Surgery, then a quite number of years of internship and residency. By the time i get there i'm already 30 something years old. That is, IF i can get there.

This is just some pros and cons, i mean.

Although i know that i'll have a steady income, my life would probably be stressful and whatever the heck it is.

IF i cut away my aim to go to medical school and go to UK's rock school instead to pursue my drums, i have the chance of no income for a couple of months. But i'll be living a more chilling and more fruitful life. Go and visit art exhibitions, live music lounge, have a vacation on my own. It really sounds tempting and coincidentally it was something i wanted all along.

So i decided to go ahead and ask some questions about it. It used to bug me a lot knowing that i might be all alone if i kept on studying until i'm 30 something years old. I hated being all alone.

But now. Somehow i couldn't care less about being lonely anymore, since that day.

Giving death the middle finger seems tempting too.

Mongie. ♥

a lesson about the one. ♥

2010-05-30T17:04:00.011+08:00

Well actually this topic came about when Kris and I were talking on MSN. In fact, the reason i want to talk about this is because well, it's just about time that we all should know.

Remember when we were younger or heck even right now, we are crushing on somebody. It may be a best friend, a stranger or a neighbour.

In some cases we headed for a crash. With the reasons of thoughts about ' he won't like me.' or ' he's taken by some shallow person ' or well, he's just not that into us.

Some people get up on their feet by one day and start roaming around again and it's a vicious cycle. But some of us don't. We need our bestie's support, love and that big genuine hug (not the fake aww hugs, i mean those REAL air-tight hugs).

In every group, there's always one best friend that tells us - "oh come on forget about him, the right one will come."

NOW THAT, is something that as a teenager whom filled with crazy hormones, would like to analyze.

To me, personally. I think that there's no such thing as the right one will come.

If you sit there, staring at the sun and moon, day and night passes. And you expect some stranger who happens to be the love of your life, just randomly sit next to you and say hi. That, my dear readers, only exist in romance novels and the back of women's head.

It won't happen if we don't do anything and don't explore anywhere. And just sit there on our butts and PRAY some perfect guy to come along - it just won't happen.

SO. You may ask : "Then how exactly do we find true love?"

I can directly tell you - true love is VERY difficult to find. You might get married to a man you love, but the guy who held the fate of being your true love might be in some other country speaking another language!

Thus, we should love the one we're with. Yes i quoted one of my favourite book, Love The One You're With by Emily Griffth.

Yet again you ask : "Alright, if that's the case, HOW to do we actually find a guy that likes us? All of my friends tell me that he WILL come one day."

What is this, the 1950s novels? As women and teenagers of 2010, i am glad to tell you guys about something - just be yourself.

You just be yourself! Eat the most goofy food, laugh the most goofy way, walk like a duck, fart like bugs bunny! Just be YOU. If a guy likes you for WHO you exactly are, that my friend, that is what i call a guy who truly likes you.

What do we learn today?

Number 1) : Forget about the rule about 'he is going to come'. By then you would be a nun already for Pete's sake. GO AND EXPLORE ALREADY, what are you waiting for?!

Number 2) : NEVER see every guy as a potential boyfriend material. Not only it seems despo, but it's just plain CRAZY and you might have a chance of actually scaring a guy off.

Number 3) : Be yourself. If the guy you like doesn't like you for who you are, MOVE ON! He is definitely not worth your time! BE WHO YOU ARE, love yourself. :)

That's all for today. I shall see you guys soon. :D

Mongie. ♥

crowds & broad daylight robbery. :D ♥

2010-05-29T13:47:00.006+08:00

I was reminded how much i hate people when i visited McDonalds for lunch.

I'm not exactly a people hater, i mean i love socializing, BUT.

I. Hate. Crowds.

They pushed around, they block your path, they sneeze IN YOUR FACE. Don't you just wanna scream : "CAN YOU PEOPLE MOVE?!"

Yet again, every time i went out to dinner, i know i was blessed when the restaurant was half empty.

Well, i guess by now you have already read this BIG title in the newspaper, but this title shall be analyze cell by cell.

Yes, our country will be bankrupt by 2019 IF we don't do something about it.

Why, that's funny.

We've been paying taxes like mad, and now you say we will go bankrupt. GEE. I WONDER where the money went?

Don't get me wrong, i love my country, who doesn't? However these kind of news and truth about the country that i feel like running away, i've lost hope.

AND I SHALL share this quote :

Isaac Ho: It is a well-known fact that millions upon millions of dollars are being corruptly stolen by fat cat politicians without blinking their greedy eyelids. Malaysians have been conned, so please wake up and boot these public thieves out of office in the next election.

To find out more and see more OH-SO-FANTASTIC quotes (girly smile), click the link below.

http://www.malaysiakini.com/news/133054

There's another link to check out, especially if you DO wonder about why Malaysia car import tax is just too high? Truth is : Car prices in Malaysia are about three times higher than the prices in the United States.

Heck yeah. Click below to know more.

http://www.islamiclearningcentre.com/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=983&Itemid=1079

lol me talking with my buddy Vince,

VC says:

*its already like fuck lah

*next month pan mee will increase from 4. 50 to 6

*coz subsidy

LMAO.

sigh if this goes on, i might as well follow my already-dumped-but-now-it's-coming-back plan to go to Ireland since Malaysia is so fucked up now.

Good day! :D

Mongie. ♥

let's keep swimming shall we? seems like the most reasonable thing to do. ♥

2010-05-23T18:23:00.011+08:00

Today i went for drum class. You can say that it's my second last class, as i decided to stop my class starting June. I THOUGHT that drums is gonna affect me, somehow someway. So i had a talk with Erik. He gave me the most honest opinion yet - i will freaking regret it.

He said : "oh my God why lah you don't come earlier? By the time you would have finish the course, take the exam, have some crazy time with a band!! "

He gave me a few heads up on what's gonna happen to me if i continue playing and continue going up the graph of drum awshumness. :3

First, i would play drums. Play as in always and always and always. THAT, i know. I have a feeling i would too. :D

Second, IF i got the skills, there will be many open doors. If i stop now, i might miss a few chances along the way. True, because there's a older dude in the studio where I have my drum lessons.

I remember what he said - LOUD AND CLEAR.

Dude : "how long have you been playing?"

Me : " *scared..* er. Till now it's around half a year, i guess. "

Dude : "i'm forming a band soon. you want to join?"

I WENT BOOM.

I feel like biting a carrot like a cigar and jump around with my imaginary long skinny legs. LIKE BUGS BUNNY.

HECK YEAH HE ROCKS.

But Erik said : "She's not ready yet lah man. She still needs to improve."

THAT'S IT! I SHALL WORK MY ASS OFF! :D

Third, heck yeah i want to play drums in a live lounge - IF i got the skills. D:

FORTH - ALL DRUMMERS WILL BECOME A CRAZY MAD PERSON. ME LIKE. :D

Erik also told me that by stopping halfway, to learn back everything is actually going to be harder. I certainly do NOT want that, i mean. I want to go up up up. I want to be good. Real good.

Which is why I've decided - OH TO HELL WITH STOPPING CLASS. IMMA GO UP THE LADDER. :D

Today i stared at my drumsticks. I asked him : "why do you have to be so smexy?"

Sunday morning 3am. I can't sleep. So from a 'certain incident', i got a new vibe and energy. Thus, i created a list with my purple highlighter.

1) Study study study. Yes, your add maths are sucky to it's core.

2) get lynzie and hafid's bday gift. :D

3) CLEAN MY ROOM. it's a horrible sight and also a war zone.

4) June holiday! going out with peeps.

5) solo vacation. Park, island, beach, waterfall - anywhere. BUT don't freak mom and dad out.

CHEMISTRYYY. ._.

i shall try.

my bengkak middle finger due to holding pen TOO tightly for years. which reminds me of Paul's expression when he saw it a few days ago. xD

...

June oh June please come. :3

I WANT TO GO OUT WITH THESE PEOPLE! U GUYS ARE WANTED!

oh crap i write Daniel instead of Dora. NOOOO. But you know who you are la. :D

KITTEH! :D

reminds me of.. LONG CAT! :D

i found this picture in my old folder! You can see how old it is as my hair is still short. >:D

AHHHH I FOUND PRICELESS PICTURE OF MY BROTHER. :3

took it when he picked me up after i performed in Bukit Jalil and had dinner with him.

Wahaha 2009 Genting trip. :D

also 2009. priceless. :P

this is... 2008 Genting trip! :D

HOHOHO LYNZEH. ;D

k la imma go and hafal my moral nilais.

Wish everybody best of luck!

Mongie. ♥

STUDY MODE : ON.

2010-05-22T10:59:00.003+08:00

...okay i might be OVER excited about Kaiser Chiefs.

This is one of the best quotes i saw this morning.

Raja Petra : Malaysian Chinese don't need MCA; they need Bruce Lee.

WIN. :D

To know more, click THE LINK BELOW. :3

http://www.malaysia-today.net/index.php?option=com_content&view=article&id=31947&catid=20&Itemid=100087

This week was my exams, and next week too. Next week is PMoral (anybody mind explaining why is this subject included in the SPM syllabus, seriously?), Chemistry, Bio and Physics.

One more thing to check it out is gLee's cover on Lady Gaga's Bad Romance, link right here.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RbVBG1slklI&NR=1

Er i guess that's pretty much it. Imma go and study Chemistry (it's rare for me to study Chemistry.) and have some jolly good time on P Moral's hafal nilai. D:

SAVE ME.

Everything is Average Nowadays - Kaiser Chiefs ♥

2010-05-20T19:03:00.004+08:00

OH. MY. GOD.

I FINALLY FOUND THE ONE.

WHICH IS.

KAISER CHIEF! :D

♥

I always listen to CAKE, which i thought they are really good. THEY STILL ARE, don't get me wrong. CAKE is awesome, but seriously.

I finally found a band that makes me jump with joy and swings around with my imaginary electric guitar. I mean, this is the one. This is THE band that I've accidentally bumped into and fall in love with.

If the band name rings a bell, it is probably that you have already listened to their song Ruby on the radio before. Which i think it's being downplayed by other repetitive songs, ya know?

Yeah it's the "Oh Ruby Ruby Ruby Ruby Ruby~ Ah~"

Yeah that's the one. :P

See yah soon.

Mongie.♥

HEART SHAPE! ♥

2010-05-18T19:29:00.004+08:00

Went back to Kulim, Kedah to visit my newborn nephew. :3

HE IS SO CUTEEEE.

and he only recognize my brother in law's voice. D:

While staring at him, i watched a tiny bit of P.S I Love You. Gerald Butler looked so. CLEAN. I mean he's playing the guitar to his wife played by Hilary Swank - stubble-less. I went NOOOO. D:

WHERE'S YOUR STUBBLE?!

The pro kid. :P

Studied sejarah. Played drums. Study study study, then it's JUNE HOLIDAY! :DDD

Mommy's attempt on doing a heart shape. :P

DADDY'S DOING HEART SHAPE! :3

SEE YAH. :3

Mongie. ♥

Ambil semua balik! xD ♥

2010-05-15T17:58:00.005+08:00

Take a break. Have a drink. ;D

i am LOVING the remix version of Ce Ce Peniston's Finally.

But there's two version, i don't know whose who. Some say it is Vandalism remix, but some say it's Denzel Park's. Meh, do not care. I'm still loving it. 8D

i personally like house music a lot, one of my favourites has GOT to be Shapeshifters. Their songs New Day and Lola's Theme is everywhere at one point!

But as you remix house music - it becomes pure gold. :D

Urgh yes the exams, how dreadful. My form 5 chapter 4 Sejarah notes are not even done yet, so i gotta buck up and stuff. Malayan Union. Dato Onn Ja'afar. ROAR.

Just got a haircut, but it doesn't have a MIRACULOUS change, it's just a bit of knit and cut over here and there, just fixing it and layering it and simply make it lighter. :D

How ironic that i say OH I GOTTA STUDY and stuff but here i am, sitting in my gramma's living room, typing with my dad's netbook, listening to music.

Summore tomorrow got drum class - SYOK.

Study konon. :P

That day i showed my drumsticks to my dad right in TEH FACE.

"Look at it, daddy. Sexy kan? :D *sayangs the sticks* "

"...if you don't do good in your second term exams, i'm gonna threw that in the trashcan. *ROAR FACE*"

Nahhh he won't. :P

LOOK AT THIS! THIS IS INSANELY AWESOME. :3

You keep pushing me away

In spite of what you say

I found out yesterday
That I`ve been wasting all my time
Trying to make you smile
Trying to make this seem worth...
While you`ve been pushing me around
In spite of what I do
Trying to make things good for...
You take your economy car and your suitcase
Take your psycho little dogs
Take it all away

Take It All Away - CAKE.

Gotta admit, that is one awesome song. :D

Mongie. ♥

Be kind, rewind. ♥

2010-05-12T19:38:00.007+08:00

I still remember when i was in primary school, i was in my green colour sport shirt with that ridiculous short pants, holding my badminton racket in one hand.

I also looked forward to Wednesdays because there's where I played badminton after school. It's a badminton club, and i remember my coach trained me and my another friend Mandy harder than other schoolmates. Let's say we have to do something 200 times instead of 100 just like the others.

I remember taking a break by standing beside the hall, where i can feel wind in your face and see the cars rush by the road. Lift your head a little bit higher and there it is - KLCC right in front of my face. There's a HUGE tree in front my school field. I'm surrounded by tree and greens even though I'm right in the middle of the city.

I feel superior, actually. :D

Spot a tiny bit of KLCC over there?

My old field. How i miss it. :(

Every now and then when we take a break, me and Mandy would sit down on the turquoise-printed wooden chair and start eating candies. I still remember those candies were called stone candy. It literally looks like stones, but yeah they are candies.

I went back last year, and i remember how i lean both my arms and lay down, looking at the buzzy city. I tried to do the same but i can't - i got too tall.

I miss the feeling of serenity. It seems that the feeling you have in primary school and in high school and completely different. In primary you actually don't felt that much - and i like it. As in high school, it's different.

Different as in, i never dreaded to come here, i never feel all happy and perky to be here anyways.

Oh what am i doing? I'm mumbling. ON THE INTERNET. Nice.

I seriously wonder why the previous senior 5 students looked so. Relaxed. D:

I mean, i'm here, right? Freaking my arse off even LONG BEFORE SPM. It's just my second term exams, and i already feel like i have mental breakdown or something.

That day i suddenly stopped studying. Walking to the fridge. Took out the peanut butter jar. Eat it raw.

After 1 minute - "wtf am i doing?!"

Besides that, there's the laughing WHILE crying. For real. I laughed AND cry at the same time. Plus one of my sistahs faced to same thing today when she called.

WE ARE GOING MAD.

We are going absolutely insane. These days i really don't feel like talking. When i say talking, i mean as in gossiping and chatting like crazy. To NORMAL MODE TALKING then yes of course, every human must communicate so we won't die young due to loneliness.

Other than that, nah i just. Imma pass. Now problems keep flowing in, all i can hear is my name being called ALL THE TIME and all i wanted to reply is " oh my GOD i need space, can you just shut the fck up? "*

*This doesn't apply to mah family & sistahs. :P

All i can say is

I am tired and i need a shoulder to lean on and i need your support.

Mongie. ♥

meow.

2010-05-09T22:15:00.003+08:00

i just watched Miley Cyrus' music video Can't Be Tamed.

yes i watched it. dont judge, i'm just so curious because people hyped it up in the blogs and i have to see whats the 'controversy' is about. :D

-after watching it-

WTF

ADAM LAMBERT + BRITNEY SPEARS RIP OFF.

Well no offence to the MC fans, i mean really. It's very Adam Lambert-ish taste, and the song is very Britney Britney, ya know?

Try to watch Adam Lambert's For Your Entertainment, then listen to Britney's songs. You will see what i see. :D

Nobody can beat Adam Lambert la, come on. :P

i had read reports saying that MC wanted to break free from the whole sweet Hannah Montana thing and all the Disney yadawadanadas.

Well i can't exactly say this, but maybe she's trying too hard? I'm just saying.

Mongie.

i know what to do. ♥

2010-05-09T09:55:00.003+08:00

Yesterday. Huh. It's a good day. :)

Went to REAL Excellence Award to perform a traditional Chinese fan dance, then camwhore with friends and teachers a bit.

AND LYN WAS SURIAN OF THE YEAR! SO PROUD OF HER. :3

*CHEERS!*

Then me Kris Eliza Kun Logaa Daniel and Aziz went to Jusco and had lunch. Then after dropping Daniel Eliza and Logaa off, the rest of us went to Kris' house to hang out a bit. Electricity went out, i was like nooooo. D:

So yeah it's a good day.

Thanks to Kris for listening to my bullshit. I kinda knew what to do after you send me that text yesterday night. Thank you, and i love you too. :3

So anybody who would like to view some of the photos, please click the link below, TQ! :)

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2035408&id=1475149623

And i'm gonna stop my drum lessons starting today until next year. SAD. Gonna miss you drum sticks.. *hugs* :(

I am LOVING this video! :D

Mongie. ♥

i'm proud to be a JUNKie! ♥

2010-05-07T22:43:00.003+08:00

i am PROUD to be a JUNKie!

No i don't do drugs, hell no. BUT. I am definitely addicted to this magazine Junk. You guys can go pick up the May issue now, it cost RM6.80. I was browsing around for magazines and i came across multiple choices. The usual stuff like fashion, tips to zap away zits, ways to be thin, unhealthy models, gorgeous dresses, killer heels. I think I've said enough.

But i wanted something different. A tangy taste, in the world of magazines.

There's where i came across Junk.

I can say after i read EVERY single bits and scraps of this, i will come back for more. ;)

If you want to find out more, go to this link down there and see it for yourself!

http://www.junkonline.net/

Maybe you can say i'm maybe a bit tired of trying to chase fashion-orientated stuff. Currently I'm more into the whole event, alternative and/or indie music, local scenes. Very different stuff.

I'm a weird person, which is why ya know. x)

I also kinda like KLue magazine. May issue is also out, this will be the Road Trip Issue. In the nutshell, this magazine covers the people, places and the events happening in Klang Valley.

http://www.klue.com.my/

They also recommend like a list of performances, events, parties, dinners and much more. This is one of my favourite parts, actually. Haha!

So if you, like me, are getting a bit tired of the USUAL stuff you see at the main magazine stands and all you can see is gossip, western celebrities, fashion and MORE gossip, I think you will pretty much enjoy the 2 magazine that I just started to love. ;)

Enjoy!

Mongie. ♥

Im alive! ♥

2010-05-05T20:14:00.004+08:00

Aziz : OH MY GOD YOU'RE ALIVE! :D

Didn't go to school for two days means there's a slight chance of being dead? xD

Yeah been sick. I keep yapping about not wanting to go to the doctor to my dad, which my dad totally disagree. I ate the meds, head to bed. And i started snoring. :)

Kinda feel guilty because I've used up like hundred's of tissue papers. I'm sorry trees.

So imma eat my meds and head to my bed. I shall CHOOSE tomorrow as a day to be happy. We all can choose, ya know. For a day - to be happy. :3

Mongie. ♥

I am a man of six feet tall. ♥

2010-05-01T21:44:00.005+08:00

Currently listening to : On The Brightside - NeverShoutNever!

Today i revisited my old abandoned blog. It's dark and black, it's basically just post after post after post after post of all things that i, well, basically don't really care.

One of them where

WEDNESDAY, FEBRUARY 11, 2009

They say. In any kind of worse case scenarios or in life, we must hope for the best and prepare for the worse. But seriously. That never occurs. Honestly? Humans are there, only to hope for the best - and is never prepared for the worst. We tend to think we prepared. We tend to think its under control.

Too bad its not.

At some point, its the same thing. People put on tons of hopes and dreams, but the second comes, bringing ~ maybe his friend - the obsticles. Which blocks out the hope and dreams we used to stuff it into our brain. People turn to any option. Either sulk and cry like a baby, or just plain give up with the temper. As some people in this world, thank God who is strong enough to stay. And will try his or her best to work things out.

To me, they ALREADY lead a successful life.

Okay. My freaking point is. Do not give up. Nobody has a freaking black cloud following around you. You will have good days, and also bad days. Try to live it fully when its good, fight like hell when its bad.

People never do everything as what the mouth or mind tells you today. Really, they will change even with a slightly bit of chance they get. This, is what i call smart. Cause you see a wall, and you just smash your head right thru it. Please. You just walk OVER it. In this world, people around us make mistakes. They make us angry, sad or just plain pissed off. Now heres the cutest part about us humans. They TRY to be rasional. They TRY to be forgivable, happy, cheerful, cool. In one sentence, they TRY to be all 'rise-above'.

"Awwwwww, its okayy. Just because you cheated on my boyfriend / girlfriend doesnt mean i'll be mad at you forever!"

Or something worst like that.

Cheated on your boyfriend / girlfriend, people. This aint saint place.

Yes, they get all 'rise-above'. I know. They seem happy, like nothing happen. But inside their hearts, you have no idea how much you hurt them. How angry are they inside. How pissed they are inside. You dont have a mood-detecter, people. Dont bother sucking up by making them happy and try to make it up to them. Cause a wound like this needs lots and lots of time to heal. Okay, and some will have evil revenge planing to make your life as miserable as his / hers. Cant help you with that. The target is locked.

'Rise-above', to me, its kinda a crap.

If you want to relieve that angry and sadness about them (eh, people, in a positive way ah, dont go around killing people aah, got karma wan ah i tell you). JUST GO THERE ALREADY!

Crazy emo-ish right? I scared myself when i read it a moment ago.

Remember back in kindergarden or primary school, there's always a kid in every school that we never dare to offend or dare to say 'no' because we want to keep the friendship or even lamer, the invisible wall over us and them? It seems that they are somewhat special, powerful among the hallways and playgrounds.

But as we grow up, even from my view of when I am 14 or I am 17 now. It may seem only a few years apart, but there are many things i learned, i hear, i feel.

Sometimes it is necessary to offend someone, in order for them to know that you are stable on your feet as you believe deeply about something that they might NOT agree on or what it is wrong. To see that you are serious about something. That you MEAN it when you say no. Learn how to say no, sometimes is not such a bad thing.

We see things that we want to see. We hear things that we want to hear. We feel what we want to feel.

So when you see everybody has a boyfriend / girfriend, you start to think is there something wrong with you and the haunting begins as you always see boys or girls as potential mates instead of friends.

Honestly. Not everybody has a boyfriend or girlfriend. You just see what you want to see : people with boyfriend or girlfriends. x)

So you always hear people say bad stuff about somebody else. You start to worry whether will you be the one that people can one day gossip about you. From that moment, you try to please or try to be good and obedient to whatever people say. It creates an illusion that you're save. Truth is, we never were. Let them speak, let them say. If you are innocent - move on. What do you have to worry about? Defend yourself.

So you feel that this world is not fair and it's always dark and twisty. You FEEL that nothing good is going to happen to you. Well, i say, feelings are strong. They come from the beginning of any event, not DURING an event. One of my friend asked me, 'why are you so cheerful every time i talked to you? xD' on MSN.

I answered : ' It's because I choose to be. Simple. :) '

I'm 17. My bone growth graph shows that it's still moving up, growing strong. I have yet to discover the dreadfulness of driving as all the adults say. I have yet to choose my career. I have yet to get hurt.

I. Am a puppy. In fact we are all puppies.

We have not feel the pain that adults have feel. The choosing part. The money part. The rental part. The work part. Correction, we're not puppies. We're actually, foetus. Our life is protected by guardians, parents, friends.

But as we grow apart, we're on our own.

Honestly? We are not ready. We never will - because we have not been hurt YET.

Looking at my 2 o'clock direction, my clock says it's already 12.25am. :)

CONCLUSION IS.

We're humans. We're build to do many things, including lying hurting and also - being a monster. We want more. We want everything.

Mongie.

It's automatic! ♥

2010-04-30T18:48:00.009+08:00

Currently listening to : Automatic - Tokio Hotel

Yesterday for a second there i KNEW fever came knocking on my door and pay me a visit. He gave me headache and fatigue as gifts.

Try to sleep with my aircond on, but it's not working. I'm FREEZING! My head was so warm and my feet are so cold, i have no idea what to do. So I remembered that my brother taught me what to do when fighting with fever.

Sweat it out.

I turned the air-cond off, open the door wide open, on the fan for a little wind, wear my socks, wear my sweater - then i head for bed.

I was about to sleep, but then mom came in. I was like oh no, i knew it she's gonna make me smell the -

"Mun! You're having fever right? Come down and smell the VINEGAR."

I was like I KNEW IT. I KNEW she and vinegar are having a conspiracy against me. I can sense her vinegar-ness the moment she walk in.

It's gross. It has some kind of smell i can't really explain. But I hate to admit it, smelling vinegar actually helps. But i pretend that i was asleep so she would forget about her master plan - it works. :3

The next day once I woke up - I use my senses to see whether the fever is gone. Lo and behold, it is cured! Right after the moment i thought YAY i'm going to school!, headache was here. NOOO WHAT IS THIS. D:

So ate breakfast and send my mom to the airport. I have to nod and smile as real as I can as my mom introduce me and dad to her Qi Gong 'people'.

After sending mom to the airport and send her a text, dad directly drive us to the Padini Holding Bhd. I was staring at the office - this is freaking awesome. There's a Seed Cafe downstairs! The waiting area is so chic! Office is big! Yay there's a lift! Yay there's this awesome edgy-looking stairs!

That is IT. I MUST come for internship after my SPM is over. IT'S MINE! *evil grin*

We sat down in Seed Cafe and dad talked to me.

"Mun, so far you have two major things to do."

*thinks* "What on earth is it?"

"Number 1 - you need to get your license. I can't always pick you up, i have business to do. I mean come on, *pokes his watch*, lots of time wasted if i pick you up. Sometimes mom have something else to do too. So you better call the L guy (lol)."

"Number 2?"

"Number 2 - when are you gonna get your shots? *serious face*"

I almost spill my Sprite. I looked at him.

"Aiyo, the cervical cancer thing la. This is serious ya know. This is about your health. So when are you gonna do it? Don't wait for your mom to do it for you. Call the doctor that operate on mom last time, do it yourself."

So basically imma call up Dr Pemita? Dr Primiva? I honestly don't remember her name. Let's give her a name that I remember.

Dr PrimaVera.

For those who don't know, it is a shoe brand. I gotta say the shoe designs are pretty good. Visit if you like.

The view from inside Seed Cafe

Spring rolls for lunch! :D

Sprite kicks Coke's ass.

Dad on teh phone. He iz teh awesome. :D

SEED! :3

So the meeting and blablabla, me reading Hot Magazine and blablabla.

We walked the wrong direction and we walked to Pavilion instead after we leave the office and park our car in Lot 10. So while we're walking I saw a familiar face in an Isuzu. So i took my chances and i looked at the license plate - wtf. It's my brother!

With two old women.

i went wtf wtf wtf wtf cougars are attacking my brother wtf wtf wtf wtf.

My dad laughed and wanted me to call him and ask what's up.

I nodded, but was like HELL NO.

After that we directly go to Lot 10 to meet this guy. Sat outside Lot 10's San Francisco Coffee and have iced lemon tea. They talk about work and they also, well.

Gossip!

I have to admit, watching men gossiping is much more fun than women. Reason? They are much more dramatic. (meaning the whole hand-swinging, sign-language, eyebrow-rising thing going on, what's not good to watch?) and two - it will never look like gossip UNLESS you listen to it THOROUGHLY. :P

San Francisco Coffeeeee.

See my dad's pretty yellow colour iPhone? xD

Pretty sight.

After that have to JAM all the way from KL back to my house. OMGGGG. ._.

Typical KL jam lah. :(

Dad : "what you want to eat for dinner?"

-at night-

Just got a phone call from mah bro. HERE'S the truth. My brother's boss let him take an early off with a favour - sending his wife and her friend to Bukit Bintang.

I was like THANK GOD. *tears of joy*

"Oh chewwww. Scare me le, gor. I thought you are targeted by cougar AND YOU ACCEPT IT. xD"

"WHATAHFAK! NO LAH! *laughs*"

and my dad was pretending he doesn't care about it. He kept repeating himself : "that boy ah, got job not much money go and spend his money on some AUNTY."

"your big bro ah, don't know what is call 'coming back and help out' wan."

"your brother ah, don't know go drive around some AUNTY for what ah. Hmph."

"that boy ah, got job don't want to do, go and drive around Bukit Bintang."

"Dad, stop stressing and caring so much. -.- "

"...i dont care ward! >:O "

I was like yeahh sureee lol. He have the most lousy poker face ever in the history of poker faces.

This is the socks that keep me warm at night! I have a green one, and mom always say that my feet look like Shriek's. :P

Imma go and read my Cleo magazine and study a bit!

Take care, as the weather is going insane, okay?

Mongie signing out for the day! :)

i'll be back. :P ♥

2010-04-27T18:34:00.002+08:00

Today i went to Steven's Corner to have dinner with my mom. When i was finding a seat, I saw a high school boy ( just like me lah haha). He's fiddling with his laptop, so i take a peak on what he's doing.

He's play Pet Society.

FFFUUUUUUUU.

Okay, as a previous Pet Society addict, I would like to say that the game wasn't THAT bad. It is kinda fun, but as time goes by I got sick of it. Not in a bad way - i just realize it EATS a lot of my time, just to earn money and buy food to my pet.

Long story short - Facebook games are crazily addictive.

Which is why i stopped for good. I don't care if it starves. It's not REAL.

Mom shared some stories about dad and her in the old days. Back in the days, my grandpa was really doing well in his business and of course his children which is my mom and my aunties are having FUN with their life, as they travel around in a jam-packed car and go around Pulau Pinang to have some fun.

She remember that my dad's friend saw my mom's gang sitting there chatting and laughing like mad. And he said : "omg look at those people, so noisy."

Who knows after a few years my dad fell in love with mommy. :P

And oh yeah, they label my mom as 'the gold belt girl'.

Because at that time, my mom was really fashionable because she get to afford all the nice clothes. And she wore a signature look, which is a big ass gold colour belt.

My dad was currently in China, but he'll be back very very soon. He calls my mom every day to talk about anything, from ridiculous prices that the customers offer to the hotel room prices. One day my mom was telling me while laughing, saying

"Your dad just called, he was at a cheaper hotel and he wanted to watch football. He can't. He said he was heartbroken that he had to on the laptop to see the scores. HAHAHA."

" Er, okay mom. ._. "

Maybe it's some sort of husband and wife kinda joke that we kids don't get. Maybe, maybe.

My 2nd term examinations is on the 17th May. SAY WHAT? I thought it was 24th! I got scared. I gotta study real hard! So here I shall stop blogging that much for awhile. Imma get back here to update my REAL Excellence Award dance performance only, i guess. Then i should GET MY HEAD IN THE GAME!

See you guys after the battle! We shall fight!

Paul Tiong : RELEASE THE KRAKEN!

Yeah suddenly it pops in my head. xD

GOOD NIGHT.

all the meow meow woof woof days. ♥

2010-04-26T20:09:00.005+08:00

For some reason, the Biology book seems so tempting. I started reading it during Moral class, i don't think Puan Maimunah notice - sorry ya cikgu. :P

Today there was a photo shoot for the school magazine, so far I've shot the Netball one and the Green House one. I guess for the next couple of days I'll be shooting the class photo.

Which reminds me about something. Today Hafid was telling me how weird i looked in 2009's yearbook. I thought he's gonna criticize about my 'lump on the head' hairstyle again. Later i guess realize that was in 2008. 2009 was, yeap, the boy cut.

Which will be THIS.

Come on, is it THAT bad? And don't get me wrong, it's not that i temporary go lesbian or go tomboy - it's just ya know. It's a spontaneous thing! I just did it, without further questioning upon myself. :D

Today was. Not good. Well i can't really say not good. It's just that, problems surface. It's minor. It can be solved, but it can only be solved if a person has strong determination of IGNORANCE and maybe don't take anything that seriously. I mean come on. It's not nothing, don't get me wrong.

This is not nothing. It IS a problem, no doubt. But you just gotta PUSH through it. Seriously! Don't take what they say seriously, just know that you done your best and thats it. You think you're not good enough? Try harder then.

Whining is not an option. You suck it up, you train and you FLY.

;)

Okay let's imagine this, somebody was talking bad about their own people LOUDLY.

Until you heard this.

"EI, 你看他, 在偷听我们讲话咯..."

"哎呀不要理睬他啦, 看他的样子一定是不会华语的啦, 真是的咯, 又不会华语又要听, 而且是华人, 丢脸到死."

"谁说我不会华语?"

I feel like standing up and clapping if any person will react like this.

Seriously, i'm a bit sensitive about the fact that some people thought that we don't understand Chinese just because we talk in English more.

Sorry to burst your bubble - I DO SPEAK CHINESE!

I go to Chinese school when i was in Primary school, for God's sake! My Chinese in PMR is B leh 开玩笑. :P

Okay lah i want to become THIS already.

Night.

That's About It.

I Want This. #2

I Want This. #1

All we need is love and salvation.

Stepping on a different ground. #1

A beanie. Is my last resort.

Light.Dance.Go.

Drums, Lazy Sunday and Daisy.

facial, cars and duck sauce.

Vampire Weekend!

Music and cats are my kinda thing.

tattoos and piercing.

Jump For Joy !

Fyfe!

wasabi graduation! (: ♥

i don't want to be a bland, unhealthy and artificial cereal box.

when it's 3 in the morning and you see Pegasus flying around, you know you should head to bed.

put your hands up if you think The Cribs is bloody amazing. ♥

you can take my temperature, it's like a hundred degrees! ♥

Thank You Very Much. ♥

how do you sleep at night?

Unicorns. *shudders* ♥

MTV WORLD STAGE LIVE IN MALAYSIA 2010! ♥

my love towards airports, flying and Ireland (again!) ♥

Bon Odori 2010! ♥

Fusball! :D ♥

run loser run. ♥

Fight the fight! - Ape Fights ♥

Egoraptor + asdfmovie FTW! ♥

not-Tedious-at all Thursday. ♥

Peanut butter Saturday. ♥

OH GLORIOUS FOOD! :D ♥

a bit of understand is needed, thank you.

Get out of the house! ♥

Chilly Wednesday White. ♥

Tuesday Yellow. ♥

why hello, Dean Martin! :) ♥

a lesson about the one. ♥

crowds & broad daylight robbery. :D ♥

let's keep swimming shall we? seems like the most reasonable thing to do. ♥

STUDY MODE : ON.

Everything is Average Nowadays - Kaiser Chiefs ♥

HEART SHAPE! ♥

Ambil semua balik! xD ♥

Be kind, rewind. ♥

meow.

i know what to do. ♥

i'm proud to be a JUNKie! ♥

Im alive! ♥

I am a man of six feet tall. ♥

WEDNESDAY, FEBRUARY 11, 2009

It's automatic! ♥

i'll be back. :P ♥

all the meow meow woof woof days. ♥

Unicorns. shudders ♥