I Want This. #2

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http://kaiserchiefs.firebrandlive.com/item/mens-guitar-t-shirt-sport-grey/2000/

It would be bloody awesome if someone give these on my birthday. FREAKING SWEET.

I Want This. #1

Number one thing to do before I die :

Attend Kaiser Chiefs' concert and dance like freakin' mad.

hellyeah.

All we need is love and salvation.

What has the world become?

Stepping on a different ground. #1

I was browsing around in this huge book store and they have a music section. I wanted a jazz album, to be honest. Bout Amy Winehouse's Back To Black album, it's just brilliant and i'm a fan of hers. But I wanted to branched out as well, because listening to one artist in a certain field only is just plain weird.

This album has the magic ability to give me a mental message after a long day in college. I woke up at 6 in the morning on Friday, with the sun shining slightly into my room and my alarm was 'Starstrukk' by 3OH!3 with snooze for just 2 minutes. Came home at about 5-ish in the evening and just feel mentally exhausted. I have to do some sketching for homework and I'm pretty sure I won't understand and master economics by praying for information entering my head.

After dinner I went to this park near my place for a walk. It's Friday so it's filled with people. When I said people, some might think about the pushing and the squishing and the bumping on someone's back with our face when the person in front of us just decided to stop in the middle of the road.

On the contrary! Although there's people, it doesn't have the intensity and rush in these sea of people. Everybody walks and talks and just chilling. There's even people dancing and that sort of stuff. I gotta say, I love it.

A few days ago, I found this indie shop nearby my place. I loved it so much that I just feel like staying there for as long as I could. There's so many individual objects that capture my eye. Everything oozes memory, people, scent, feelings. They sell rare notebooks (which clearly is 100% my kinda thing), CDs (I found The Kooks among the CDs that they're selling, SCORE), cups, calenders, baby stuff, simple outfits, pens, different genre of books - just about anything I like.

I used to dream that I will open one of these shops. Be in my wonder land all day and selling each and every special thing I have in my store and make my customers happy. Picturing my product placing somewhere in their house. Gleeful to know that I've help in making their home, HOME.

Do check out this website if you are a fan of visual art and culture.

http://artnouveaumagazine.com/

Found this website when I was doing research for an assignment in Contemporary History of Fashion. ;)

Anyway, here are just some of the photos that I've taken. Enjoy !

One out of thousands of streets in GZ.

Heart-shaped cigarettes!

Grandaunt's telephone book in Hongkong.

My short trip to HongKong.

Hongkong = sea of people.

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My second home.

Signing off for now.

A beanie. Is my last resort.

Basically this is what i've been up to. In a nutshell. :D

NAH i'm kidding. Will get to the details real soon.

Yes, i've been studying for half a month in China before flying back to Malaysia. And my GOD it is quite chilly there. Rented an apartment (there's where i go "I HAVE A HOME!") . Will be flying back real soon.

I'm currently studying Fashion Marketing and Management in Raffles Design Institute!

I will be there for 3 years and will only be back once a year. But i think there's a high chance that i will be staying there longer!

Many of my friends asked : "WHY CHINA?!"

Well, truth be told, i don't know.

Yes, i can study here in Malaysia. But i didn't. I guess i want this adventure, a difference. And many other stuff and reasons! ..okay, i just want an adventure. I've been in KL for so many years, and switching it up is actually very interesting.

I really have to thank my parents for all this. They financially and morally supported me all the way, i'm really grateful. And i promise to deliver my best in my course.

And i never understood Malaysians who wear boots around town, it's pure madness. I've been walking around China with boots, and i DO sweat. Imagine the people here wearing this thing, they will flood the God damn footwear and shower the plants with perspiration later at night.

And they banned Facebook, Blogger and Youtube. So.

See you guys next CNY! :D

umphs and mwahs, Mongie.

❤

Light.Dance.Go.

If i like wearing jeans, t-shirt and converse. If i love about the fact that i play drums. If i'm not feminine. If i'm not attractive. If i have the smallest eyes in the planet. If i was found easier to hang out with guys. If i love blazers. If my laugh is not as elegant as in the Victorian times. If i'm meaty. If i love indie music. If i love to jump around and dance when there's awesome band playing. If i love cars. If i'm fond of tattoos and piercings.

It doesn't mean i'm one of the boys.

I just want people to see me as a girl. I'm just somehow a wee bit different, that's all.

The questions. 'Why why why' is always in my head. Once in awhile i cursed at my size. I hated about the fact that the biggest factor about me that turns people (mostly guys) off is my size and weight. This issue is always on and off, for awhile i'm all "screw everybody, God made me like this". But there are moments where i go 'i would do anything to be skinny'.

I got sick and tired of not being comfortable in my own skin, especially thinking there's something wrong with me because I've always been the unlucky bug in certain aspects of life.

I used to be shy when it comes to this, not knowing and not wanting how to dance like how my good mates Kris and Nisha dance. I used to envy how they can move around without any care to the world. Just before my prom night's time to dance, i inhaled every courage i have. I looked at Rina and Nisha when Black Eyed Peas started playing loudly, they gave me the eye and we walked to the dance floor together. I finally get to dance around with them like there's no tomorrow. I used to be strict to myself, telling myself NOT to raise my arms while dancing because, honestly, it's flabby. Someone could get hurt in the process, especially in the face.

But hey, i did it anyway. It may be a disgusting sight, but the feeling of freedom is so overwhelming, it felt so good that i actually.. don't mind.

Anyway. My point being. All these while, I've been convinced that being another person, with a certain type of personality will make people like me more. But in the end, what i don't see is that it wears me out so deeply that i'm starting to get emotionally stressed out.

The best thing is to be myself. If that doesn't attract anybody, then it's alright i guess. As long as i'm happy and content, i know everything is going to be alright in the end.

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Need a pick-me-up? Here you go.

Does It Offend You, Yeah? - Being Bad Feels Pretty Good.

I did it.

I'm finally okay at NOT being okay.

Drums, Lazy Sunday and Daisy.

IT'S THE STIG!

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One of the good things about this 3-month-freedom is that i can continue my drum lessons. But the receptionist wanted me to go to the studio personally and pick out the date, time and everything. I uh, haven't got a clue when will i visit the office yet. So we'll see, although i'm genuinely excited.

My passion over drums wasn't a life-long kinda thing. It was more of a 'yeah this looks great, let's do this' and it blossoms. Oddly, my parents had never suggested any instrument-playing when i was a child AND in my early teen years. Erik was surprised when he found out i don't have any early involvement towards music. Actually, it was more of an episode of my dad's inspirational teachings. He always encourage us to pick up a language or learn a skill so we can have a better grip in future. Well, anyone with brains will agree to that.

It got into my head without much stress, and so one day i thought drums is actually a great idea. I never liked guitar or piano or cello as much as i like drums, so i just asked for my parents' green-light and go full throttle.

Oh, my first day. Nervous as heck. I went in the studio and met Erik. Learned the basics and stuff. The highlight of the month is when he told me i was definitely above than average. Let's be honest, everybody wants to be good in something. Of course i'm over the moon.

I thought that hey, i can tackle drums, i might have a good shot in playing guitar as well. But unfortunately i was all feet when i strum the guitar. After all the hours trying to play it, i finally gave up. Knowing that i had absolute no talent whatsoever with the guitar. Thus, it sits there, sooner or later blending together with my wall of things.

Switching hands to change the chords becomes a chore, and it seems impossible. My hair stands and my spine tingling as i strum on my guitar to produce some sort of odd tune that i know i'll never enjoy. Cringing at the fact that my parents whom are downstairs drinking Nescafe and reading the newspapers are gonna think that their daughter don't have the magic fingers.

Eventually, i stopped. And decided i should just stick to drums.

I know i won't be playing the guitar anytime soon, at least i do enjoy holding drumsticks in my hands and kick in some beats. When I slowly learned how to play the drum intro for Kaiser Chief's Learnt My Lesson Well, I went HOLY SHIT I DID THAT! The day after that whenever i had the chance i would hit my fingers against any table to practice that short drum intro in the beginning. Not owning a drum set at home is not a minus, definitely. But owning one would sure drive the neighbours insane but it would keep me happy. But due to the economy now, i don't think it's a good time to look at my dad and said : "Dad, i want to be a professional drummer. To do that, i need a drum set. *clap hands once* NOW."

It's selfish and idiotic.

Being a good daughter. OYEAH.

Anyway. God. Has anybody want a cat real bad?

I know i want a cat quite badly. A few days earlier there's a cat rolling around our compound, and it definitely caught my attention. I went up to her, bend down, look at her and asked what is she doing. She looked at me with that cute eyes that just makes me want to drop everything and hide her in my room to take her as a pet.

As our family do basic things like washing the car or doing the laundry, she's still there. I wanted to keep her, but i don't think dad would be happy when there's cat fur all over the house and his sofa destroyed. Mom would be fine with it, as my grandma has 3 cats on her own. I used to be afraid of them, they look quite intimidating. But once i got in contact with them, things just changed. But i'm still very afraid of dogs. ..Especially Lessie.

Next day the cat was gone. So i had to diverge my plan to catnap others.

No wait, drums, guitar, music, right.

Anyhow, i don't get why there are some people who want play instruments just to get famous, be rock stars and all that. Besides, unless you're really good-looking, the drummers usually won't be recognized by people. It's true! I learn drums for the sake of passion, interest, and yes it can save me when my future in studies tanked.

Well i'm not saying my future will tank.. We just won't know what can happen, right?

I found this song on Youtube for quite some time, and it's has become one of my favourite songs. And yes, they recorded this in the year 1968. It absolutely cheers me up by millions of miles, hope it does the same to you!

Small Faces' song Lazy Sunday.

Then Kaiser Chiefs sang their song live in a french radio station i think. I loved both versions, it was great!

Kaiser Chief's version

Daisy will always be my favourite flower, even though the world consider it as the flower of death! (:

facial, cars and duck sauce.

For the first time in my seventeen year old life, i've agreed to do something - to go on a facial appointment.

My mom whom was reading the newspaper, sent an open invitation to me. I was laying on the couch watching TV, agreed because of two major things :

i) My prom is coming up! I need to get rid of my blackheads and shape my bushy and growing like a forrest, triangular eyebrows.

ii) there's nothing left to do at home.. so LET'S GO!

When the lady started picking out my blackheads, of course it hurts. I feel like my face was made out of ice cream, and she's using that scoop to scoop up every dignity and pain receptors i had. But i can tolerate pain quite okay, i guess? But believe it or not, i found a way to ease the pain from all the squeezing. It won't suck off all the pain, but yes, some of it. Oddly, it's cars.

My brother's friend uploaded Top Gear series 15 - in HD into our computer. I was super excited about it, and i believed that i watched it so many times i wasn't even bored of it. So all the images of cars just got into my head during facial. There's a couple of cars which are weirdly painkillers to me, apparently, there are :

Citroen DS3 racing

It's not the most good looking car in the world, yes. But there's just something about it, some mojo going on that you just look at it and go 'hey, i think i wanna take a ride in that'. I would be very happy if i can drive that, even if it means i would drive on the road with no license.

Truth be told, there can't be too much orange.

Ferrari 458 Italia

God, just look at that! I've never seen a Ferrari and go all excited about it. Usually when i was reading articles or viewing images about any Ferrari, I don't pay much attention to any of them because technically, they don't appeal THAT much. But this one, when i saw it, it just makes me go HELLO!

Lexus LFA

I fell in love with this car as soon as Top Gear introduced it. It just makes you wanna tear something with your teeth! Uh. I just made it sound sexual, but it's not. It's just THAT awesome.

The thing about it is, that it looks completely breathe-taking when it's in a show room or in a show like Top Gear. Mainly because of car wax and the lightings, creating such an enormous effect and made it looked flawless. It's just something like a dull-looking apple and a shiny apple. You'd pick a shiny one, but only later you found out about people deliberately used harmful wax to attract consumers. Ill-minded business men.

Anyway, my point is, when it's not in that kind of position anymore, it just looks so gigantic on the track that it's going to suck and eat everything that gets in their way. And it will give a smirk in the process of it.

But, that's just a one second thought. With constant waxing and perfect weather, it does look like an amazing car to own. But not all of us has about 375,000 pounds to spend on. It's a rich man's world, after all.

Although there are a few more cars that i know about, but these three are just the cars that i randomly thought about. Ehm, just a short note. Yes i do like cars, i like speed and all. But i have to say, i don't know much about it like their horsepower and all that. The only thing that i ever remember is carbon-fibre, that's that. But hey, no matter what i will still have a thing for cars. (;

OH one more thing, as usual i have something to share. Saw this on MTV just today, enjoy!

and my GOD Stephen Fry is on Bones season 5! Two of my favourite in ONE! How brilliant is that?!