Fight the fight! - Ape Fights ♥

Currently listening to : Sailed On - Landon Pigg

The fact that I've been very hormonal these days actually freaks me out even more than before. Previously the actual steady fact about teenage girls laughing now and flipping out and cry next is normal. But I think I just reached a whole new level of hormonal-imbalance-ness.

Can you hear the clock? You can't? Pick up your watch now. Listen to it. Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock. It has such beautiful note, isn't it? I don't know about you, but i sure do find it mysterious and charming. The 5 ticks and another 5 tocks is already an indication - you have just listen to the melody of time running pass you.

Time can't be seen. Time can't be heard. Time can only be applied with the use of sunrise and sundown, and of course your watch.

Tick tock, my friends. Have you done things that you should have done yet?

How simple to see, that in 24 hours, major things to do are walking, bathing, eating, breathing, talking, working, thinking and so much more. I call these 'the jobs of our 24 hours'.

But in a lifetime, all these 24 hours 'jobs' turn things into something we held on in life. Something that leaves a mark, a stain. Something that will become a cycle or a pattern of our life. For example, we talk. We think. In general we be ourselves, we socialize. We can say that, it jumbles up into relationships and friendships in life.

We walk and we eat. In a lifetime that jumbles up into what we are, in the looks of our body shape. We walk less, we eat more? Or we walk more, we eat less? THAT affects body shape, doesn't it?

There are things we need to do forever to keep living. But there are things to do JUST for that moment. I remember about the oral test I have to do with my classmates. English and Bahasa Malaysia oral test, to be exact.

I have to remember the lines and dialogue and that jazz. We kept thinking that this is just bullcrap to do. We kept pushing it away. For the fact that it just takes 5 to 10 minutes to get all the things we remember out to our mouths, and get our marks. That's it. Then it is behind us.

It is easy.

Now, the examinations. I am sitting for my SPM this year.

I have 5 months left. WE have 5 months left.

The moral here is, it's just a stepping stone in our education. This is not a daily routine. This is just something that we HAVE to do, in order to get a better education in the future. This is just something we really, really have to do.

Remember : after this is over, you are a free man.

Then it's a cycle. You gotta start over again in college and push it.

SO FIGHT THE FIGHT, DAMMIT. :D

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I open up my journal a few days ago. There's so many miniature problems, so many feelings, but so tiny incidents. D:

I refuse to believe that my 2007-2009 life is THAT event-less. I refuse to believe that I've put so much unnecessary feelings and emotions into such thin crust problems. I refuse to believe that i forgot to mention the details of my everyday highlights.

The fact that I never wrote any detailed stuff in it makes me angry, at the truth about how lazy and mind-changing i am. Is it that hard to write down the details?

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The hormones are kicking me quite hard in the head, for real. Hence the 'time and tide waits for no man!' and the 'upset over my journals' post. This is getting weird and mental~

Today is my baby Nisha's birthday! :D ♥

Yeah I squished her so hard today in school, it's worth it. xD

So i will see you guys in a few days?

Mongie. ♥