sighh. i give up.

NYAHAHA, HI. xD

My thumb is bleeding, as we speak. But i never bother to do anything. Its just a superficial wound anyway. SO WHAT THE HECK RIGHT?!

By the way, yesterday our school organized this whole cinema thing for charity. Its originally from the money earned from Disney On Ice thing. But.. Senior section, yeah with the whole "Oh im too old for this, God." So its kinda a down-down show.

So it is really a bright idea for having this Surian Cinema thing going on, WOOHOO for teachers in charge! And anybody and everybody involved in this. =)... And summore some students still dont wanna pay just because they dont know what movie are they gonna keluar, i mean come on. Cut them some slack. They have to answer their bosses about all this, and to do their job. Aint easy. So way to go, woohoo!!

And tomolo we're having this food and fun fair thingy going on. Hope Suria will always have this kind of events. Cause seriously, life is boring without CARNIVAL!

I need to work really hard, especially im in Science stream! I gotta work hard. I have this cute pink folder with me. I put everything, certificates, kindergarden, primary and then secondary stuffs too. Im kinda a geek when i was in kindergarden. IM NOT BLOWING MY OWN HORN, IM SERIOUS, but i was always the top 3 students every year and term. I saw my kindergarden results and the starting of primary school and its just playing sad. I cry when i see all my results A, and teachers remark saying im a good prefect and stuff. I suddenly have this feeling, like a knife stab into my gut, and i can hear voices asking me : "What on earth happen to you?..."

Since in primary school standard 5 all my grades start to drop. My marks started to get lower. I really did feel this mental pressure. Repeating in beats, saying what have you become. I need to gain it back. I need this. I need all the strength and energy. I need to sign and balance to FIGHT. I NEED IT.

I dont have time for LCLY looks. I dont have time to think who have a better life. Fine, have a AMAZING LIFE, i get it. Im sucky, i get it. NOT smart and pretty, i get it. NOT happy, obviously. I get it. Just seriously dont rub it in my face. I dont have time for this idiotic stuff. I LOSE, i screwed up, i made a mistake. But that mistake doesnt make me who i am completely. Yeah i lose, boohoo. I just dont care anymore, so can please just get off my freaking back? Just dont let this get into ANYBODYs mind that this is the only thing i am. Theres more about me, that ANYBODY have not yet see. So shut up. Theres more about me, so back off.

Not to declare war.

I just want a peaceful life. And get this over with.

M o n G i e Z