a bit of understand is needed, thank you.

Every time i skipped lunch, my parents would always think that i'm skipping meals to be thin. And it's beginning to tick me off a little.

The reason i skipped meals sometimes doesn't mean that i don't prefer to eat. It's actually very simple! - I'm just NOT that hungry! Yes, i admit, i would love to be thin. But it doesn't mean that I don't know the actual and healthy path towards a healthier lifestyle and body!

GEEZ.

Maybe they expect me to start vomiting and go counselling and all that STUFF that parents dream while handling problematic kids.

I'm not a baby. When i'm hungry, i WILL eat. When i'm not, i won't. That's it. It's that simple, don't they ever get it?

SECOND ONE.

As you all know, it's the holidays now. And all i wanted to do is to chillax, go out a few times with my friends to meet up a bit and stuff, just being a slack-y teenager, i suppose. It's the HOLIDAYS! I mean, holidays HAS it's own purpose, ain't it?

BUT OH NO~

Ever since that confession of wanting to join MBBS, all my parents can tell me is how short the time is, how i'm not spending my time to the fullest, how i'm not going to find a good job in the future if i choose something else, how and how and how and MORE hows.

I. Hate. Getting. Tied.

Other people may be able to cope this. I mean, the whole parents want me to do this, they give me all the things and i just go for it.

I just can't. I can't do it. I just HATED getting tied.

I like finding my own materials, informations. I prefer myself knowing what is what and what my goals and targets are, instead of constant feeding of EVERYTHING to me. I absolutely loath that.

I honestly wanted to plea, PLEASE just let me have my time enjoying my holidays. I just need to breathe for awhile. In this week. It's like they don't allow me to. I KNOW in MBBS everything is very exam-orientated! I know that! Don't you think i know that? Just let me do my own thing and stop guiding and tying me!

Example, if they keep on stressing on about cutting all of my time using the computer and all that, i will be freaking pissed. IF they just let me loose, i will always realize the pros and cons in a situation and i will set rules to myself, saying :

"Okay, you already went out and have your fun with friends during the holidays. It's enough isn't it? And all holiday long you've already have spend lots of time in the computer, isn't it? Now. Be discipline. Study smart now and you can spend ALL that time after SPM, isn't that great? Work hard 1st, then enjoy later! "

BUT OH NO~

They just don't get it. And you may say 'why don't you just talk to them? :D '

I would have to probably, punch you.

Do you think i would have this problem now if the simple solution is to TALK to them? I would have done it earlier ain't it?

Suffocating here, hello? Help me?

It's like i'm a bug, they love me so much that their hands are so tight, it's suffocating me!

If i tell them about this, all they can say is that this is just an excuse. Saying that letting me loose will only cause myself even more trouble and wanted to go out and have fun even more and probably ALL the alibis you can think of. And their famous sentence is : "Mun, i know you can do it, you just don't want to it."

HELL YEAH if you keep suffocating me like THIS! D:

If only talking to them can make them understand. Now i just feel like shouting WATAFAK and pull all my hair out and be insane. I can't STAND ties and tight rules and regulations and strictness. I can't. I will go bizzerk.

Mom. Dad. I love you people.

But seriously.

Stop it. :(